Always is not. Every day is.

chapter 30

ONE MONTH LATER

(11:58 pm)

RYLE's POV:

Exactly! 1 month ago I decided to give Lake One day to make her fall in love with me. I went on making notes on that day, a day which will decide my future. I decided a lot of things but what I actually didn't think was that maybe it was too early for lake to start everything all over again. She went through a lot of things, things that can crush people, destroy their sanity and tear them apart into a million of pieces, pieces which will scare them off till death and pieces which they'll never try to figure out.

This is exactly what happened with lake. No matter how much capability is inside of her to fall in love with someone it can't just come out in a day.

You can break a glass in a second but you can't fix it at the very same time.

She had been broken; she can't fix herself in a day.

So I dropped the matter. I didn't barge into her the other day but now that we'd been together for more than a month I think it's time for her to get that day. A day that she deserves.

(12:00)

LAYKEN'S POV:

I feel the movement on my bed, I shift uncomfortably and try to go back to sleep but then the lights flicker open and I hear his voice.

"Lake!"

I feel his voice getting closer and then I open my eyes finding him lean on my side of the bed.

"Ryle!"

His eyes stare back at me for a minute before I break the silence.

"Ryle, what time is it?"

"Its 12."

And then I realize that it's finally the day, the day for which I had agreed. The day which I had promised him to give.

"It's time for us to leave. But Lake just tell me now, are you ready?" he shift himself on the bed.

"Yes Ryle I'm ready. I'd been for a long time" I smile and so his face illuminates with mine.

One month ago after I spilled every mean thing out of my mouth, I think I spitted something as well. Maybe I'd spitted the negative thoughts that had been residing in my brain for a long time. That day was different. I had never known what honesty of words sounded like, I never understood the people when they used to say "I can hear the honesty in your words." I had never understood until that day. Every word that Ryle said had stayed with me. I had been affected and learned that maybe life is not all about junk. Maybe you don't want to throw every part of it away. And I'd started believing that. Yes there had been worst days. Days on which I wanted to end everything but maybe there are good days waiting to arrive as well. Maybe there is something like meant-to-be.

From that onwards things literally changed, I started feeling Ryle's presence everywhere. I could exactly sense the protectiveness in his words. I could feel him and as much as this is crazy to say but my heart finds peace around him.

Maybe love doesn't drive you crazy, maybe love is peaceful maybe whatever I feel towards Ryle is love, maybe I love him but that's obviously hard for me to know.

How will a beggar react after knowing that he'd won a lottery?

When I don't have control over my eyes, I find them staring him. When I don't have control over my legs, they walk to him. When I don't have control over my lips and my tongue, they share good talks with him and the lips oh they just turn into curves. When I don't have control over my mind, it wanders and finds itself wondering about him. When I don't have control over my body, it goes to him and does things that amaze me.