Always is not. Every day is.

chapter 25

LAYKEN POV:

I am standing here all straight not knowing about what should I do. Only if I could rewind the time and throw that shity note it wouldn't have happened, my mom would never know about what his husband did to me and so she wouldn't have been this much broken like she is right now. I am staring at my mother who is crying hard trying to catch breaths in between and then I look at him who is now all pale yet trying to act casual by saying "what do you mean?" he try to laugh in the middle of the words yet fail miserably.

How can he actually laugh on a really real point?

"I need an answer Dillon." My mom speak with determination ignoring his useless laughter. This time he doesn't speak neither he laugh or smirk instead he is looking straight at my mom and by the look on his face I can easily say that he is trying to figure out some lies so that he can feed her but again fails miserably.

"I said that I need an answer Dillon." This time my mom scream so hard that with her voice my body starts shaking.

He take a step towards her and spit out every single word that he could to break the left over pieces of my mom. "Yes I did. I did Jules because what is she? Just a slut like you. And nothing more than that. You thought all this time that she is like a daughter to me or for you let's remove this word like. No she is not. She wasn't before. Neither she is right now. Nor she will be a daughter to me ever in my lifetime. She wasn't expected in this world but just because you didn't take pills she came into this world by mistake. And I will always refer to her like that because she is nothing more than a consequence to a very stupid mistake that we made together. And so you didn't gave birth to a normal girl. You gave birth to a whore because it is running in your blood. Your mother, then you and now your slutty daughter. It will keep continuing and no matter how much you try to deny this fact you cannot. And yes I did fuck her so many times and guess what she is more good in that than you and not only this but--------"

"Just shut up. I say shut your fucking hole. Enough of it." With these words out she sink on the floor bringing her knees to her chest and covering her ears with her hands.

"All this time, all this time. You were doing this to her and not even for once I knew about it. Oh! How could you do this? All this time you were pretending like we both mean something to you. I didn't even know that side of you Dillon. How could you?" she bury her face in her hands and cry even harder.

With all of this going around me I don't have any idea for what should I do so I walk towards my mom and while sitting on the floor I bury my face in her hair, "mom" as soon as she hear this word she take my face in her hands brushing her finger on my cheeks and with this small act those tears that I was keeping in since so many years now escape out of my eyes dropping on her hands. She wipe my tears and then stand up suddenly and so I do the same.

"Layken I want you to go back at your place, okay?" she say to me while pulling me in a deep hug. "And i will go at Anna's (her friend). I can't live in here anymore neither I want you to stay. Come let's go out."

As soon as he hear these words he walk closer and grip my mother's face with his hands hard that my mom starts panicking to take in the air. I walk to him immediately and try to get his arms off her but of course he has more power so he hit me hard that I land back, my head and my shoulders hitting the table. My vision starts to get blur but still I am able to see him whose arms are now snaked around my mom's neck as he say "after so many years you think I will let you go? Huh ---". He continue himself. My mother is trying hard to get his hand off but she is unable to do anything. I try to get up to save my mom but I fall back. I try to think about something to do and just then an idea hit me and I take my phone out of my pocket dialing 911. I hit the button of call and just then I hear a loud crash and a glass break.

When I lift my eyes from the phone I see that my mom is thrown at one corner. The pieces of the broken vase are all spread around her. The blood is coming out of her head and her hands and her eyes are shut. "Mom" I scream hard and with this I put my mobile and this time by taking the support of the table I get up. My vision is getting even more blur and with difficulty I walk towards my mom, taking her head in my arms and shaking her body to try to wake her up. But her eyes are shut. I take her wrist to check the pulse but nothing.

No beat?

What?

No. no. no.

It can't.

She- she cannot.

"What did you do to her? You son of a bitch. What did you do?" I shout at him as I get up from the floor. I push him back with both of my hands but he doesn't even move.

"What the fuck. You-you killed her. How could you do that?" my whole body is shaking. I am crying, squalling, shouting, squealing and screaming at him all at once. My throat starts to get soar but I still squawk until he put his palm against my mouth to stop me from screaming and with his other hand he hold me tight, my back touching his stomach.

"She deserved that. I won't do anything to you layken if you will promise me not to tell anyone about this. I will give you everything. We will live together. Have sex and---"before he is able to say anything. I hit my elbow on his stomach freeing myself from his hold. He bring his hands to his stomach trying to get rid of the pain and I start to run in the direction of the door.

"You bitch." He say with pain in his voice. Before I was able to turn the doorknob he grab my hands and push me back. He slap me on my cheeks twice and I fall again. This time my head hit the floor so hard that everything around me starts spinning and my head ache so hard that I press it with both of my hands but nothing happens. I squeeze my eyes shut with pain and the next thing I hear are the sirens coming near I open my eyes but my vision is so blur that I can't see anything clearly. With light traces I can analyze that my father is running towards the window he is saying something but I cannot make up the words because my ears are all numb as the main door opens. Few men enter in our house and there is a girl as well. Then I see a man among them with a familiar face moving towards me. Terror is all over his face and he is shouting something but again I can't hear. He drop himself on the ground by my side and scoop my head in his arms.

Then I at last hear him say my name, "layken" and I know without thinking that it's Ryle, my savior.

"Ryle," I manage to say before the whole world blacks out.