Always is not. Every day is.

chapter 11

Oh my God, I am so so so excited for this concert. Like I can simply not believe that I am going to see Ryle live for the very first time in my life ever. Only if I would have been able to measure the exuberance running in my blood on a scale from 1-100 it would have been something more than that.

I can still not believe that Allon arrange this entire thing for my birthday. It's such a huge present. How am I going to repay this?

God, I don't know what to say.

It has been an hour since I am trying to get dressed up but I just don't know how to take all of this at once. I am blank. Just blank.

Then the door to my bedroom opens with a bang. I know it's Allon since it's just the two of us in her home oh well our home. The last time I mentioned this place as her she ended up throwing a punch on my belly. Who in this world would ever want to get that again? Not me at least.

"Oh my god you little prick. WHAT THE HELL!!!! YOU ARENT EVEN READY. OHHHHH GODDD. WHAT SHOULD I DO TO YOU" she said half screaming and running back and forth in my room.

"Oh Allon sweetie you are looking so pretty." I compliment, ignoring her tension. Because she truly is looking gorgeous with her fancy glittery top and a short that is way too short revealing her long bare legs that is looking even more amazing with her boots on. I wonder how she manages to rock always. She is amazing.

"Ohhh layken forget about me. We are already left with just 2 hours, in no time it will be 9:00 pm and then the show will begin. We don't want to get late right?? .......... " she is saying maybe looking at me but I am staring directly in her gorgeous light green eyes not able to focus on any of her words because I am too lost on my way. Thinking about what a U-turn my life just took. Thinking about this amazing lady standing right in front of me to whom I mean the world. That one person who gave me such a huge surprise that weighs far more than my body my soul. It's too complicated yet feels too much good. I never felt like this before ever.

"Oii, LAYKEN" I jump at her words. Bitch. "What are you even thinking about? Don't tell me that you are planning to be all emotional again just because you cannot take this situation" ohh she know me so well. "We don't want to look forward to such emotional night. Girl we are supposed to enjoy you know enjoy and that's it make it the best moment of our lives." She say dramatically like always swinging her hands in the air landing it on my shoulders each time.

I don't reply to any of her words instead I simply hug her tightly. Trying my best to keep her in my arms. Keep her safe. Love her always and make her love me too. Trying to hold that person of my life who just morphed the entire situation dragging me from the dark and dull one to a world where I believe myself, where I learn and want to get more confidence with every colors.

She replies to my hug too and I whisper in her curly hair that smells like cherries. "I love you Allon". "I love you too layken" she whisper hugging me even more tightly.

"Ehm ehm! "

We both jump a bit and look at the doorway leading that one voice that broke the silence.

Adam it is, Allons boyfriend.

"Ohhh Adam what the hell are you doing. You scared the hell out of us. Stupid" i said while still trying to calm my breath.

"Ohh well, I am going to the concert too with you guys. Your friend just invited me' he said walking closer to Allon pulling her for a quick kiss on her cheeks. Oh they look so cute together. "You see I don't want to leave you kiddoes alone in such a rush rush place, anyways."

"KIDDOES HAAHAHAHA. " I laugh hard.

"Now Adam can you do us a privilege to leave us alone for an hour or two so that I can get layken all dressed up. Huh?" she said.

"Oho yeh yeh of course." With this he walk away.

"I can't believe Allon that you... You... like look at this. Do you even have any idea for how much expensive it is. Like I am. I don't know what to say." I said while chewing my bottom lip due to i-don't-know-why or maybe i-don't-know-what-else-to-do reason.

"Ohoo pfffff ...... let it go babes. It is nothing. Now can we just you know? Make you look good and all set up because I aint leaving to the best concert with a girl who looks like a messed up shit of this world."

I laugh.

"Now sit here. I am going to get you a dress." She said while walking towards my closet.

Hardly two minutes pass and she returns with a black sequin dress and a pair of gladiators.

"Oh my god, I am not wearing this dress Allon just look at it bae. It's full revealing. My back, legs, shoulders what else is left. No way," I said crossing my arms and turning my gaze at the mirror, looking at Allons reflection.

"First thing I wasn't asking you. Second thing I wasn't damn asking you and third thing I wasn't damn fucking asking you." She say while walking closer. "So it turns out like this that you are actually wearing this."

"But......"

"Or else my muscular Adam is here who will definitely help me get you all wet in the shower and perhaps you will have the third shower of your day."

"Oh yes I will baby." Adam scream from the outside. Obviously being aware of what's going on here.

"See" allon smirk.

"Fine I give up" throwing my hands in the air.

"Now shut up let me apply you some makeup."

An hour is all it takes for Allon to make me look amazing. I am staring at my reflection looking at all the curves of my body. My slender legs and long blonde hair. And bare skin of my shoulders and neck. Like always she managed to hide a bit of my scars and scratches on the skin yet not fully and I am perfect with them. It reminds me of who I was and who I have become now.

"Wow" is all I am able to say. I was about to say Allon a big thanks when she almost immediately say "you don't have to" knowing the words that my lips were about to form.

"Now get your bag ready okay, I am downstairs. We will leave then." She say while turning away but stop on her way out
"and yeah, don't forget to take your painting okay? It's wonderful by the way. You never told me you are an expert in art along with literature." She say still with her back at me.

"Umhh, how do you... I mean how do you know?" I ask

"I am best at sneaking" she whispers loudly and walks away.

I grab a pen and a paper and start to write something about the painting for Ryle. After 15 minutes I am all done and I paste that paper at the back of the canvas.

Once I am done with staring at my painting for the tenth time I wrap it in a sheet wondering whether I will be able to give this to him or will this painting walk back with me again in this house.

And I leave my room after packing everything and staring at the pretty me for the last time in the mirror. Still thinking about tonight.

I need him to take this painting.

It's his.

Ryle, this painting belongs to Ryle- my savior.