Castiel
'Deans not here.... I have no classes.... I am alone?..... god I'm alone.... FINALLY!' I sigh in relief as I finally have some me time. I take out my phone and play some music. I pull off my trench coat and I smile in complete joy. I stretch out my wings as I scan them in the mirror.
I go to a small box where I hide my diary, a brush, and a few other things. I take out the brush and begin to groom my wings. I go softly knowing that my wings are highly delicate. I go even more softer when I hit the feathers on the bottom. I make sure that I don't pull to hard on one of my feathers.
The rest of the time I am dancing to a few songs that play. Then I hear a familiar toon. 'Yesssss! I love this song..' I lay down on my bed to allow the song to drown me in it's lyrics. I mumble the lyrics to my self and I can't help but tap my finger. Then... my thoughts go back to the event that had happened last night.
I blush as I remember the feeling of Dean's hand on my cheek. Then my thoughts go to his lips 'Jesus Cas....'
I go back to just listening to the lyrics coming from the song.Then I hear the annoying but familiar sound of the door. I freeze in place as I see the door open. Then suddenly I cover my self in the blankets. Rolling into a borrito as Dean walks up to me. "Cass..." I hear dean say softly. 'Oh no no no no no no no no no no no..... no! ' I look up at him to see if he was frightened or regreting being friends with me.
Then I feel Dean hold up my arm. "Cas why?" Dean says. I realise he is referring to the cuts on my wrist. 'Oh phew he didn't see my wings... Oh but he did see my scars... dang it!' I then realise I left Dean waiting on a reply so I quickly think of a answer. " I uhh... it's though for me... I bet you wouldn't understand" I say.
I see Dean's face sadden and he looks at the ground shamefully. " actually Cas... I do." He says pulling up his sleeve. I see scars running up and down his arm. As I look at this I feel my eyes watering.
I move slowly and touch his arm" what was your reason?"I ask. Dean looks me in the eyes and I could see all the pain he has been holding back for what seems to be forever. " my father wasn't perfect... after my mother died he became abusive and other kids bullied a person like me who would move around a lot. I couldn't handle it... I couldn't handle that everything is my fault the reason Sammy can't have a better backstory to tell all his friends, I blame my mother's death on myself, I blame myself for my fathers change. Cas believe me I understand the feeling of helplessness, so please... Castiel don't do this to your self" Dean says on the verge of crying.
' Don't cry... be strong for Dean'. For a moment I didn't care if Dean saw my wings... I needed to comfort him. I get up form under the covers and hug him. I feel him tense up but then he suddenly hugs me back and cries in the crook of my neck. Then I feel his hands petting my wings. He let's go of me and I could still see the green in his eyes even though his tears are filled in his eyes.
"Dean I will try to stop I promise, from now on I'll tell you everything" I say. Dean nods as I could feel him still petting my wings. I shiver at the touch and stiffen a bit. " Cas what's on your back?" He says a curious look on his face. I look down not ready to tell him but knowing I must. " their... their m-my... wings" I say almost taking back my words.
Dean smiles" c-can I see them?" He asks. I nod slowly shocked by his reaction. I rise up my wings slowly and I could feel his eyes staring at them. " their amazing Cas" he says.
"Y-your not freaked out?" I ask. He shakes his head"nah Cas I have a friend who has an extra toe... plus your my friend I l- uhh except you in what ever form you are" He says. ' Oh my gosh was he about to say he loves me?!!!!!'. I smile like a dork and hide my face away. "T-thanks Dean you don't know how much does words mean to me" I say.
He laughs" alright just stop smiling like that your making it awkward" he says. I smile and feel I weight that was on my shoulders disappear.
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(Later on that night)
Dean's pov
(Also Dean is writing right now)" oh no no no..... it's Cas. It's Cas who I'll have to kill. Why him? Why? Why? This can't be happening. We just told each other our pasts. I can't I can't do this to him...... I'll lose one of the only people that I truly love, and who truly love me. I can't do this"
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To hell and back( destiel college AU)
FanfictionCastiel has always been different from everyone else. Now he is forced to go to college, where he meats a beautiful stranger. Castiel finds out that his name is Dean Winchester. He also finds out he will be roommates with him. Little does Dean know...