I gave it my best. I gave what you wanted me to do, my best. I know and you know it. I was at my worst when I decided to stop being friends with you because of what was going on. My brother was coming home from the army, my other brother was getting married, I had someone messaging me with harassment and threats, and I was also getting calls from "no caller ID". I was going through a lot and I'm sorry I pushed you away.
I'm sorry that I was protecting myself because of what I went through my junior and senior year of high school. You started talking to her again and that only took you a whole summer to fix things with her but it took you a whole school year to fix things with me? Why is that? I was your Bestfriend of 6 years and it took you that long? I was the one that was there for you through everything and once something happened with me, you fall low and push me away. That killed me and once you did that to me, I did that to you because I honestly didn't know what to do. That killed me. You were my person but now you're not.
Were you ever going to tell me that you started to talk to her again? Because if you were, it didn't seem like it because when I had your account, I did block her from it and I know it wasn't my right to do so but you know why I did it. You got mad at me because you guys were talking and honestly, I didn't know what to do. If I had known, I wouldn't have blocked her but I had to find out the hard way that you guys started to talk again? So were you actually gonna tell me or just keep it from your Bestfriend? When were you gonna tell me?
Honestly, I miss you. Once we stopped talking and being friends, the shit talking between you and her about me started and you told me you wouldn't allow that to happen. What happened to that promise because I haven't been talking shit about you yet. We been friends for 6 years, what happen?
How did we allow it to get this bad?
Why did we give up?
We allowed someone to get between our friendship when we shouldn't have. I have so much more to say like, you knew what she did and said about me so why become friends with her and lose me? Just why? I been there since day one but once she pulled that on me, you took her side and everything. You picked someone that you knew for only about 2 years over me. Your Bestfriend.
I'm not even mad anymore. I just miss you and I know we can't be how we were before again but oh well. Just know I'll always love you and if you ever need someone, I'm always here. I'm not someone you have to be afraid of or anything. I'm someone you can talk too even through we're not close anymore.
But it all doesn't matter anymore.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I'm sorry that this piece is all over the place. I was in the shower when I started to type this and then everything just decided to flow out my head on my screen. This is about my Ex Bestfriend that I knew for 6 years. I have nothing bad to say about her and I wish nothing but good for her in her life ❤️
Update, I DO with nothing but bad for her. She ruined us and apparently it's my fault.
YOU ARE READING
Thoughts and feelings
Short StoryYou'll get the understanding of how I'm feeling in my daily life and you'll understand why. You'll get the picture of what's going through my mind with my wild thoughts. Some of you may be able to relate to me but others won't and that's okay. I'm j...
