Thoughts and feelings

Growing up

Growing up.

Its all apart of life.

Growing up may sound scary or sometimes make you think to yourself, "I'm not ready to grow up" but it is part of life and you cant stop it. You begin to grow up once you are born and placed into your mothers arms because every second, every minute, and every hour, your body  changes and grows. You cant stop it no matter how hard you try so you just have to get used to it and just keep moving forward enjoying your life to the fullest.

Hi, I'm Alexis and i'm 19 years old and i just started to life on my own.

You have many points in your life where you have new beginnings. For 19 years, i been living in my childhood home and i will always remember it. These are some things that happened in my childhood home that i will never forget;

Memories of my grandmother and my uncle.

My brothers and I arguing and having fun.

My uncles tag sales and late night swimming with the family.

Cookout and having my close friends coming over for sleep overs.

And many more that i will not name because that would make this entry very, very long.

I learned so much in that house until i was 19 years old but everything comes to an end at some point and this is where i start living my own life without my parents. I moved to West Haven to work but i'm happy because i'm finally on my own and starting to learn life on my own as a 19 years old girl almost 20. Most kids of my age cant say that because they are still with their parents but that's okay. You leave and do things on your own when you are ready. Don't rush it because you never want to rush into things like this if you are not ready because it will be hard for you. I was ready for this. Ever since i was 17, i wanted to explore life on my own so when i got the opportunity to do so, i took it and i am loving it. I am 48 minutes away from the place i grew up at and in but at least i'm on my own with my boyfriend. We are living life and we love each other. Ever since we moved here, we were able to start saving money, we got a new bed, a new TV, and 2 new phones ( Iphone 11 pro max) because we don't have to help anyone and worry about anything. All we have to worry about it ourselves and taking care of one another.

Oh and by the way, Mikel and i make 9 months today. Yay!!!

I'm actually happy that i'm not in East Hartford anymore because that city brings so much bad memories of bad people, old friends that are happy that i left because it gives them PTSD if i'm there which is really STUPID and they need to go get some help but you know, that's how afraid people who don't like me get (and there goes people subbing me. PTSD is a state of mind that is caused by trauma and apparently some people have it due to me. I did not do anything tragic to them so I'm not sure why I'm being subbed or being told that they're happy I'm not in East Hartford anymore because they don't get PTSD when they go visit or go around East Hartford because they live there since I used to live there. They're just afraid of me). The only time i'm back in East Hartford would be, seeing my family and my in-laws and they get happy when they see Mikel and I.

We never have been on our own until now but we are loving it and wouldn't trade it for anything else. We don't have to deal with crazy ex girlfriends, back stabbing ex friends, the stress, or the negativity that was brought upon us. So for those who talked down on us and didn't want us together, screw you and thank you because look at where we are at, then go look at where you are at compared to us. we are living and growing us, while you are just sitting at home living paycheck to paycheck while we are not. So thank you for talking down on us because we finally showed everyone that we once did that thing you guys said we couldn't do together.

Growing up isn't easy but as you get older and do things on your own, you start finding things out and it makes it so much easier.

I'm only 19, almost 20, and i'm still growing up but i am happy and enjoying every ounce of it with my baby.