Thoughts and feelings

Days are longer and Nights are peaceful

I look around and i smile to myself almost every single day no matter where i'm at. I could be at school, at work, walking around the village that I live in, or I could just be sitting in the car, and ill just smile.

Living a stress-free life couldn't be any better because my days became longer, my nights because more peaceful. I don't wake up anymore in the morning wanting to go back to sleep and never want to wake up or just end it all so I don't have to deal with everything that I been dealing with the last few years. The drama, the lies, the cheats, the back stabbers, and the fakes. I never have to deal with that ever again and i'm so happy I never have too. Maybe at some point in my life, I will go through those things again but not as bad as what i went though already. You want to know why i say, "Not as bad as what u went through already"? Its because whatever i went through already, it made me become a better and stronger person today than what or who i was before. I'm not the same Alexis that everyone knew before.

So my days became longer, and my nights became more peaceful.

I don't cry myself to sleep anymore. I don't worry myself to sleep anymore. I don't hurt myself before sleep anymore because I did before. It took all my stress away for that time being because I couldn't handle anymore stress than what I already had on me. I was someone who couldn't handle stress or had ways to even let it out so I kept it in until I broke. Now, I have my ways, I don't let people get to me anymore, and I don't let it build up as much as I did before. honestly i'm at the point where if you don't like me, good for you. If you want nothing to do with me, I don't care. Nothing bothers me unless its directed to my loved ones or my friends. Other than that, people will try to knock me down but in reality, they simply cant because I wont allow it.

I'm smiling a lot more and i'm laughing. No one can take those two things away from me because those things are what makes me a better person. I used to be in the darkest moments of my life when I wouldn't smile or even laugh. I would look at you with a dead straight face because I couldn't smile no matter what people would do. I wouldn't laugh no matter how funny something is or was. I was just at the point in my life that I wasn't happy and I didn't care about anything in my life but that changed for the better.

My days became longer, and my nights became more peaceful all because I'm living my life stress-free unlike some of you who don't know what stress-free is.

I don't argue like I used too. I don't fight how I was fighting before. I don't worry as much as I did. All of those things made my life a living hell but once I cut out the negativity, my life turned around for the better. I think that's what you would say. Negative vibes are something no one has to deal with because it ruins your health, you're soul, the way you live, and then way you sleep. You shouldn't have to put up with anyone who brings out negativity in you or brings it into your life because honestly, who really needs that? I'm sure as hell that I don't. I'm happy where I'm at. I'm happy with the 5-6 people I can actually call my friends. I'm happy with my family. And I'm definitely happy with my lover.

So like I said before, my days became longer, and my nights are more peaceful.