Thoughts and feelings

Letting go

Im ending it all and just letting it go of everything.

From this point on, nothing will stand in my way and nothing will knock me down. I will stand my ground and not allow myself to be beaten down by anyone's bullshit or lies anymore.

I used to be someone who would put people before herself and who allowed people to walk over me because i rather have them feel good and happy about themselves no matter how i felt in the end. If they're happy, that's all that matter to me but i came to the end where that wont happen anymore. I know my worth now and i know that i shouldn't be treated so poorly because i am human. I am like everyone else in this world and i should be treated with some respect.

(I will only put some people before me but everyone else can crawl in a ditch.)

I will treat you the same way that you treat me.

I will give you the same respect that you show me.

Show me anything less, then i'll show you the same amount. Im not going to put my full 100 while I receive only 50 back from people. So I will give you the same amount that you give me in the end.

So im ending it all and letting go. Once January 1st comes along, im starting new. I don't care what people have to say about it and what im going to do to better myself because its not for you, its for me. Once the new year starts and begins, im doing me and doing whats best for me.

The only people i want around me will be the positive ones, the ones that love me, and the ones that I love. If you cant do any of those, then im sorry, you're cut from my life. Don't bother asking me for anything and don't wait for me to go to you. The ones that show me their 100, will be the ones around me and the only ones that will receive my 100 in the end.

Im ending it all and im letting go of everything.

Im way too old to be dealing with negative things and all the bullshit that was thrown my way since the beginning of Junior year of high school. I want to start new with a fresh clean plate.

Im way to old to be dealing with things that are caused from older people who act like they're 12. Not my fault you feel threaten by me or jealous of me.

Just know, whatever you can do, I can do WAY better baby.

So im ending it all and im letting go of everything.
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I wrote this a while back in 2018 and im glad to say that everything i wrote in this piece, its coming all together. All the negativity that was in my life is slowly going away, i have the person that i love and that loves me, people are showing me their 100 instead of 50, and im beginning to become a new person. Im happy with the place im at now. Im in school, i have a job, i have some amazing friends, i don't need to worry anymore, and im just me.

Im also sorry about not posting a lot lately. I just been busy with things but im gonna try to post more!

I still love you guys! Don't forget that!