We would see each other at school and parties but when I saw him alone, he was a different person.
He was my anchor but I never knew I was his distraction. He used me but I didn't know what for...
I've taken every single drug but he was my drug, he...
Eventually I moved back to my old house, I left all of my clothes at Ethans and I didn't have the will to get them. My Dad was gone, I didn't know if he was dead or alive..
I stood in the bathroom and sliced cuts on my arm. They were covered in scars and blood. My sadness felt numb. At this point I wasn't feeling any pain, just hate for myself.
Zack and mom offered for me to live at their house for the time being but I refused, I just wanted to be alone. At school everyone hated me now, they all now see me as Ethans side chick.
The blood was getting everywhere now so I turned on the tap and washed it all of my arm. It was a stinging pain at first but it soon went away.
I hated life but most importantly, I hated myself.
I always saw Ethan at school and I know for a fact that he's doing much better than me at the moment.
~ ETHANS P.O.V—
"1.....2....3...Drink!" Someone said and everyone started taking shots.
The tequila burnt my throat as it slid down. Right after, I bit into a lemon to take the taste away. All of us sat in a circle and I noticed a girl was looking at me with flirty eyes. She was holding a cigarette and she tapped the end so the ash would fall off.
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I pursed my lips together and got up from the floor. When I walked towards the door, I turned back to her and pointed at her to follow me.
She had the cigarette in her mouth and when she came closer, I took the cigarette out of her mouth and put it in mine. I took a breath and all of the smoke came out of my mouth.
Without waring, she crashed her lips onto mine and I didn't hesitate to kiss back. I threw the cigarette on the floor and stepped over it as I was still kissing her.
She put her hand on the back of my head and I held her other hand and guided her upstairs. She pulled away from the kiss and she pushed me into a bedroom.
My back hit the wall and she smashed her lips on mine again. I tapped the sides of her legs, signalling her to jump and she did as told.
She wrapped her legs around my torso and I took her to the bed. I sat down on the bed and before I knew it, she was on top of me.
She started planting kisses on my neck and I shut my eyes, letting out a small moan. When she pulled away, I opened my eyes and got startled.
I saw Yasmine. I gasped loudly and quickly pushed her off me. "What's wrong?" She asked and I finally came back to reality.
"No-nothing, I thought you were someone else." I said taking a deep breath. "Well are you okay?" She asked, coming closer to me but I moved away.
"Get away! I mean yeah, I just need to get out of here."
I opened the bedroom door and made my way downstairs. The music was playing so loud that I could barely hear myself think.
I went out the front door and outside.
"Yo Ethan! Where you going?!" Someone yelled at me. "Home!" I yelled back and I carried on walking.
But that's the thing, I hadn't been home for 3 days. It been all parties and sleeping at other girls houses.
I still had a cigarette in my pocket and I lit it with a lighter and breathed in all the smoke, letting it out through my nose. Slowly I dragged my feet home.
~
I reached to my house and when I entered the front door, I saw Andrew and my mom arguing.
"I don't know Caroline but it's YOUR fault he's like this!" Andrew shouted at her and I knew they were arguing about me.
I tried to not be seen and I just walked past them but Andrew noticed me.
"See! I told you he was a mistake!" Andrew yelled and I stopped in my tracks. "What did you say?" I gritted my teeth.
I wasn't in my senses properly and I was still drunk.
A laugh escaped his mouth and he knew that really pissed me off. My whole life flashed before my eyes and before I knew it, I started punching Andrew to the floor.
I was hitting him with both my hands and I heard Grayson yell my name. "ETHAN STOP!" Grayson grabbed me by the collar and I fell backwards.
I looked back at Andrew and I realised that it wasn't him. It was my mom. I gasped loudly and she had a big bruise on her forehead.
"Oh my gosh mom-" "Get away from me!" She stopped me from helping her and she held onto her stomach. Oh my gosh, she's pregnant and I just beat her to the floor.
I saw Andrew standing in the corner and he was about to hit me but Grayson stood in my way. "Touch him and you'll be next!" Grayson spat at him and Andrew stepped away.
Andrew went to help up mom and she got up and shook her head. "Maybe you are a mistake, I was planning on one kid not two."
I stopped and watched her go upstairs and Andrew tutted at me and gave a sinister smile.
"Ethan what the hell where you doing?!" Grayson yelled at me right after they left. "I-I don't know, I thought mom was Andrew but-" "Are you drunk?" He interrupted me and I nodded yes.
"I bet someone put something in your drink." "Maybe but at the party, I saw this girl and....I thought she was Yasmine."
That name hadn't been said for a long time and Grayson stopped for a second.
"You miss her don't you?" I nodded.
"You can't change what happened in the past now Ethan, she was your only happiness and you ruined it." I tolled my eyes "Jeez Thanks, another way to make me feel like shit."
"I spoke to Allison and she said that Yasmine's distanced herself from everyone, her brother, mom and even her." I lifted my head up and gave a confused look. "I've seen her around school a couple of times but she always ignores me. I wonder why?"
"You don't think she's...." "Gone back to her bad habits?" I finished what he was going to say and he nodded.
I sat down on the couch and thought for a second.
"Tomorrow's school so when I see her tomorrow, I'll find out."
************************* 🌹AUTHORS NOTE🌹—
HEY GUYS!! Let me just tell you that I'm about to fall asleep writing this authors note right now. Ethan and Yasmine have gone back to their old ways again😬😬or some might say.....Bad Habits.
I just wanted to say that tomorrow I'm releasing my first chapter of "Don't Be Left Behind" AKA the sequel to "The Girl Left Behind. It's going to be a mystery book so go and read it if you're interested. The book will be about Grayson's twin sons in the future and both the Dolans will be in the story along with old characters.
I'm sorry for the boring chapter today but I just got back from school at 7:30pm NOW and I hardly got to write. I'll see you all in the next chapter BYE XOXO 😘😍🔥🔥❤️💝👑👑✌️✌️✌️✌️
