21 days to move on

Chapter 28

Day 21 - Moving On Operation

"Mission failed."

I looked at Kimpie who's having his own dilemma of me failing. Luke told me to forget about him but my heart doesn't want to. Forgetting someone is not an easy thing. It's like telling me to forget about the things we've had together.

Silence. Silence filled the whole room. Tears were falling, rolling down my cheeks. Will it always end this way? I'll always end up crying because someone freaking left me.

Kimpie tried to enlighten me. "You've done your job, Bes. I guess the next and last thing would be forgetting."

It stung. The word forget pins me down. It felt like my heart was stabbed by millions of knives. I cried even harder.

I thought this would be the last time i'd be crying. I tried to compose myself and flashed a weak smile. "Tell me Kimps, I'll be fine right? After this, no one would leave me right? No one.."

I wasn't able to finish my line because my voice started to change and my eyesight became blurry. Everything felt weak. Kimpie hugged me and tried to calm me down.

"I told myself not to cry anymore, but how come I still am? I just couldn't stand the thought of someone leaving me again. I'm afraid, frightened," I sobbed harder.

I cried even more when I remembered Luke's reason why I should forget about him.

FLASHBACK

"But why do you want me to forget?" I asked. My hands were shaking in nervousness. "I'm miserable, Domingo.. You've had enough of me."

I covered my face with my hands and started shaking my head. "This can't be happening again."

I had no idea why was I reacting badly. I thought I accepted him leaving already. Why am I feeling something strange? The pain wasn't tolerable anymore.

"What do you mean?" He asked. He held my hands and gripped it. "I'm leaving tomorrow, Domingo. You knew about this. You even knew my plan all along. I thought you accepted it already? But why are you giving me so much guilt?"

I hugged him. I hugged him tightly. This would be my last hug. I felt his hands on my back carressing it. I'm gonna miss this guy so damn much.

Maybe we didn't start pretty well but the journey was the one who turned out pretty good. I continued hugging him and I filled his coat with tears.

"You take good care of your silly ass in Australia, alright?" I smiled at him, still shaking. "And you, find a better girl in Australia. Email me when you found one."

He laughed at my joke. "Her name would be Lelay Domingo," I smacked his strong-built chest. "Stop fooling around."

"Please forget. Please know that you are one heck of a girl. You're the one worth coming back for," He sighed. "If I'll come back, you'll find another boy and think of him every single day. You'll soon compare him to any guy who's around you and be proud of what he's become.

"But that guy wouldn't be me. That guy would be so much better than me. He wouldn't think of himself, He would think of others first. He's the opposite of me. And I tell you, you'd like him more than me. He'll treat you so much better, he'll make you feel that you're the only one he's ever loved. He would be willing to jump in a train for you or even catch the bullet for you. He would do anything just to see you smile."

We were still hugging. I felt his tears streaming down his face. He was crying. But this time, he wasn't crying because of Julia.. He was crying because of me.