Until You Give In

Chapter 5.1 The Sun Rises In The West

Ae's POV

'No I don' t hate you Ae'

Hearing these words from you, had reassured me a lot. Because knowing that you don't hate me, gave me the sense of satisfaction of staying here beside you. That's why this time I want to come clean and explained myself so that you will understand where all of this came from.

"Ai Pete, you're probably wondering why I hated you when we first met...", I started, he immediately stared at me, with his panic expression. I smiled and turned my gaze else where.

"Ae... I...", you tried to say something but I know that you're not still comfortable with this topic, but i don't want anything that may obstruct our newly acquired 'relationship'.

"I just wanna tell you the truth Ai Pete," I stated, as I looked straight at your eyes. And in turn you linger your eyes on me as if trying to see what's on my mind.

And eventhough you still have a sense of apprehension, yet still you gazed at me full of understanding  and after a while slowly nodded .

"I had a bestfriend, I mean an EX bestfriend, I don't usually befriend someone aside from my family members, but me and him hit it right of when we first met...he was like a brother which I never had, we share the same hobbies and like to fool around, we were both in highschool and goes to the same university, I don't know when it started but he changed, or should I say he was starting to show the real him... ", momentarily I stopped and turned to you, a smile formed in my lips, as I saw you just silently sitting there, just focusing on listening to me, thus I decided to continue,

" it was probably a week before our last year in highschool when he confessed to me, you might not understand it, but...I...I got scared, because suddenly... the person which I thought I knew, became this stranger whose eyes I cannot stand...still an immature brat that I was...probably still am...all I could give him back then was my 'Hate', so I pushed him and say some hurtful words...since then I had alienated him from the rest...I had started abhoring his 'kind', thinking and generalizing them as this deceitful, traitorous and sick being...until he...he...decided to leave school... I haven't had any news about him till...my cousin Pond showed me a photo of our former school mate Mean with his boyfriend and guess what it was Plann... "

" Ae... "

"All the memories came rushing back and it just fuel this hatred I was still carrying through the years...that was the day we first met... I guess I was trying to vent that feeling and incidentally you were there and you were 'that' so without even thinking I kind of put all the blamed on you...I know it was wrong yet I did all of that to you, because of my immaturity... I'm that despicable Ai Pete... "

"Ae...you are not...despicable..."

"Ai Pete even my cousin Pond said so, when you walked out on me yesterday, Pond had told me off sternly...that was the very first time that he did", thinking about it now, Pond was being mad for Pete's sake, that was really not so like him, does he like Pete more than a friend? If he is, then shall I just beat the crap out of him even if he is my cousin. But for you Pete I cannot admit defeat. NEVER.

What's is mine should stay as mine

"That's not true at all... Pond doesn't think like that, the truth is Pond really wants us to be friend Ae...he was really worried about you..."

"Ai Pete..."

"What is it Ae...?"

"Do you...perhaps...like that bastard?"

"Bastard....?", you asked as you tilted your head in a very cute manner, I almost lost myself just by looking at you.

"Pond", I clarify.

"Ow yes I like him... Pond is really an interesting person", you exclaimed with those eyes that can't hide how happy you are just by talking about my cousin.

Really how cute is your beaming face...

If only...

If only the reason for that was me...

"So you like him..." I stated, my face starting to get gloomy.

"Yes I d-... I mean I like him as a person... As a friend...not for any other reason Ae...", you stuttered immediately correcting yourself, did I scare you again.

"Ai Pete... I was not", Yes Ae you clearly were I sarcastically berates myself.

I saw you sighed as you held your chest, I coughed to gain your attention and I did.

"Pond is really... Er a so-so person not really interesting enough such a nosy person", great Ae...great and now you are digging a pit of your own cousin.

"And honestly between the two of us...I could say that I'm more interesting than he is...I do sport and much stronger than he is...really the only redeeming factor of his, is him being super nosy and talkative that you won't have to listen to the radio anymore," I was about to continue bragging, when I heard you stiffled your laugh, as I turned my gaze on you, you were clearly trying not to show it but I could see the light movement of your shoulder, and I guess  in the end you cannot held it any longer so you had freely let it out.

Pete you are really adorable

So adorable that I could just hug you tightly...

Hug you tightly until you and I become one...

"Hahahaha... Ae... Hahaha...the way you're talking...its as if...hahaha...its as if you were trying to sell yourself...hahaha",I could literally see the tears that were starting to form on your eyes as you continued to laugh.

"And what if I'am", I blurted out without thinking.

And you stopped laughing...