Until You Give In

Chapter 9.4 Can't I Love You

Pete's POV

"Daili...", it was all that I could say. I was happy and worried at the same time.

Presently, the two persons that I don't want to meet.

Met.

And the other person which I still don't have much confidence to see is right here. He still have this bored look, like nothing else bothers him, and it... It makes this guilt much stronger.

The guilt of this past 10 years...
......................................................................

Three years ago...

"Pete...son are you alright...?", the worried voice of my mother woke me up from my momentary trance. I took my eyes from the close window when I felt her warm embrace and her gentle hands as she pat my head on the side.

"What is it Pete...did you-?", she wasn't able to finish her sentence when I pulled myself slightly away.

"Don't worry Mother...I can already block the memories...the bad one...that's why you don't have to worry about me..."I told her and smiled softly.

" Even if you say that, Pete I will always worry about you, you are my only child...you are so precious to me...that's why I always wish that you could be happy for a lifetime... ", she smiled at me and embraced me again, this time I hugged her back.

A moment pass by, when I decided to tell her.

" I saw him again... "

" Who..? "

" that kid who... ", I unconsciously shivered when a bit of memory flashed in my mind.

" Pete...! You don't have to..."

"It's okay...it's okay...I'm okay...", I kept repeating these words. Like a mantra that can help me calm down.

"If it bothers you Son, you don't have to remember or see him...if it makes you-"

"His name is Zee... I can't forget...I just can't forget the person who save me that time"

I won't forget...

He was only a child just like me.

At that time...

He was only three years older than me.

He was only there with me, because he have to.

He was kidnapped along side with me that day.

Because, he was the kid companion my Grandfather, somehow hired...so I can have someone who can be with me at all times.

I was happy.

But the nightmare happen.

If I wasn't being too adamant to go to the playground even if its so far away from our house.

Any of these won't happen.

And because of me...

P'Zee almost died...

I still can't forget his battered body at that time...

At that time...

He...

He was not moving...

His body was just lying there on the cold pavement...