My Philophobia G.D.

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HAILEE'S POV.

I got the dinner ready and Kylie with my little brother layed the table.

My mom ,my dad and my Brother Noah were all in the living room with Romeo and his family.Two years ago when they came here they wanted to meet the family that helped me and Kylie going through all the shit they put me through.

"Hey everybody , dinner is ready, me,Kylie and Jack will wait for you in the dining room when ya'll ready"I talk throwing my hand in the air to indicate the dining room.

After a couple of minutes I see my mom coming near me in the kitchen.
" Behave yourself when you are in front of other people, don't talk like you are a child ,with your hand in the air" she said with her fingers wrapped around my wrist.

"Other people?" I take my wrist out of her grip "What do you exactly mean by other people Mrs.Behaviour" I said looking seriously at her.

"At people like them ,that are not your friends or part of your family,that are strangers" she answers.

"Oh ,you mean those strange people that gave me a life and that, unlike you, helped me believe in myself , making me able to achive my dreams?". She didn't answer and just sat at the table.

That's my mom, she thinks that she can come to my own house and make the rules. She thinks she can come here and tell me how to behave, like she did when I had to live under the same roof with her, "Oh Hailee,people are going to come sooner or later , when you sit in front of them sit well, smile but not showing your teeth, don't talk if they don't ask you to and don't look at them  in the eyes.When we will be eating rememebr to be the last one to start eating and the first one to give what people want, chew your food the correct way I told you and always do what they or me tell you to do, did you understand that?" she used to order me and I used to just say a simple "Yes mother".

It makes me throw up at only the thought of a mother treating her daughter or her son like a babydoll.

I fold my hands in a fist and just close my eyes, trying to put my better fake smile on my face and meet the rest of the people in the didning room.

"Hailee? Are you okay?" Noah comes near me.

I don't look at him, since my eyes are full of tears and I don't want to make my brother argue with anyone.

My brother and I didn't get along so well when we were kids but growing up he showed me that he felt the same way I did about my parents and we understood eachother better.He didn't have that much pressure I had, but still felt my hurt and tried to make me laugh as much as possible , even if he never admitted that.He is a cold guy but still has a great heart, he just doesn't know how to show it and maybe don't want to.He always tells me "Stay away from people, make friends but always remember that nobody is going to love you like you only can do.Humanity sucks" that's how my brother tries to protect me.He is really right about it though.

"Yeah, I'm fine ,preparing the dinner got me really tired but I'm fine" I say looking at him and trying to smile.

"I heard what you and mom said, don't lie to me. No need to" he said seriously "Come on let's go, we always had to do this, it's just another fake day and you'll be happy again when they leave"

I walk towards the people sitting at the table and say to myself that it sucks to think that my child one day could think this shitty things about me,her/his mother, while he should be thinking about the fact that I am there for him and that I am the only person he can trust and that loves him/her unconditionally.I'm here thinking these things about my mother and I feel sorry.I love her, it is impossible to not love your parents, but I just can't love her the way I want to.

Romeo and Kylie look at me and I smile at them, knowing that they know I'm faking it.

"So Hailee ,how is your career going? Are you working on some  new projects?" my mom asked me, pretending she cared about it. She doesn't even listen to my songs and pretends to act like she cares about my projects.

PFFF

I move my eyes from the plate I was eating from, to her eyes. Not answering her immediatly. I just looked at her.

"Fine,I'm working on a new album and also filming a music video" I said without any emotion in my voice.

"I'm really happy about that, you are succeding in what you love.I'm proud of you. We are" She corrects herself refering  to my dad.

Even if my dad and I are not that close to one another like we were when I was a kid, he knows me better than my mom , way better than her. The only problem is that we can't go back to the kids we were a couple of years ago.

"Yeah!" I only answer sending my look from my mother to my dad.

He doesn't look at me, when he sees that I look at him he makes his eyes look to another direction. That's how it works with me.

Fortunatly the time passed really fast and it was already 12:00 p.m. and Romeo and his family left.

I got to the guests room and prepared the bed for my mom and my dad.

"Your room is ready , when you are ready to go sleep you can find everything in the guests room" I said, walking into my room with my little brother Jack. My little cute brother decided to sleep with me tonight.

Noah had to leave with his girlfriend before and forunatly I didn't have to prepare another room.

Justi kidding, I love them.