My Philophobia G.D.

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We make our way back into the living room and I start the music that we can now hear in all the rooms of the house, thanks to all the speakers that are into the walls, connected to the TV.
"let's go into the closet" I take his hand after placing the TV remote in the white marble of the table.
We get upstairs while "Friends" by Justin Bieber plays. I dance as I'm walking and just at the last stair I turn around and move my hand pointing with my finger at Grayson.
Can we still be friends?
He smiles at me and follows me up the stairs.
We enter the closet and some pairs of high heels and shies are in the middle of the room.
I remember that when I got my memory back after the accident, I couldn't fina a proper pair of shoes and I messed up the shelves, leaving everything on the floor. I never got the chance to get them back in place.

"holy fuck!! Do you wear all this clothes? " he asks.
"nah, I just like buying them but I always wear sweater and shorts or jeans. I usually wear all the other clothes and dresses at events. Like the Mtv awards" I joke, smirking at him.
"oh" he smiles.
"but don't worry...Kylie wears all the other stuff for me" I smile while I try to reach my lagguage that is between the roof and the wardrobe.
"aagggghhh" I can't reach it.
"wait" Grayson says, coming behind me. He places his warm hands on my legs and lifts me up.
"wooop" I scream as I can't no longer feel my feet on the ground.

I take the lagguage and Grayson places me back on my feet.
"thank you sweetheart
" Aw, you're welcome baby girl "
" WOOOOOHHOOO"I move my arm in circles, just like a cowboy before throwing the rope." that's too sassy" I joke.
Grayson laughs and I kiss his jawline. I try to do it, not really being able to reach that because of how tall he is.
"I like the idea of it tho" I say attaching our chests together.
He moves his hands on my lower back and pecks my lips.
I try to wrap his waist in my arms but as I try to close them in a circle around it, my hand can't reach the other one.
He is so damn fit and I love the feelings that his body gives me.

I feel so small and protected under his touch that I am afraid that it'll become and addiction to me.

"and I like the idea of you being my girl" I get on the tips of my toes to reach his lips once again. He lowers his neck and kisses me.
When our kiss gets into a make out session my ears are filled by the sound of the song "you are the reason" by Calum Scott.

Grayson breaks the kiss and looks into my eyes.
"do you want to dance?"he tucks a lock of hair behind my right ear.
I nod my head. He puts his hands on the dmsides of my chest and softly lifts me up, making me understand that I have to get on his feet.
" I'll hurt your feet" I whisper.
"you won't...shhh"he says and I don't talk.
There goes my heart beating
Cuz you are the resson

GRAY'S POV.
As Calum Scott sings and the first words can be heard, I think about when me and Hailee met again, after she lost her memory.
Our hearts were beating so fast!!
I was able to hear the music of her heart and I bet she was able to hear mine too.

I'm loosing my sleeo
Please come back now

When I got home after I found out that she didn't remember us, I just layed in my bed and stared at the ceiling the whole night.
I begged with every part of my body for her to tell me that nothing was real...I begged for her to come back.

She rests her head in my chest.
Even if she is in my feet, she is still not that tall and it drives me crazy.
I love it.
She is such a beautiful thing to me.

I move one hand from her lower back to her head and I star caressing her long, brown, wavy, beautiful hair.

It's been just a month and a half since we first met and I felt the words "I love you" nearly come out my mouth for, at least, 3 times.
I tried to keep them inside of me but I feel like I won't really be able to keep it that way for a long time.

I'm planning on asking her to officially be my girlfriend...I think that Bora Bora will be perfect for that moment.
I already bought her the gift with which I'll ask her to make it become true.

The song keeps on playing and I think of the piece of paper that Hailee gave me.
She told me to read it when she'll be gone and I'm still asking myself why she said that.
I want her to be where she belongs:by my side, in my arms and under the same sheets.

Ethan says that I believe too much in what I live. He says that I believe  that the girls that I date are always the right ones when they actually turn out not to be.
I don't know...maybe I really believe too much in people, but Hailee is something different.
I discover something new about her everyday and that makes me feel like I will never get tired of her.

The sing is nearly ending and I move my head looking at her.
Her head is still resting in my chest.
"hey" I call her.
"mh?" she answers.
I cup her face in my hands and kiss her.

We keep on dancing with our lips still attached.
The song ends and our kiss breaks too, as she hugs me.

"did you book the flights?"
"no, I have to call, but I searched them on line yesterday and I'll book them now"
"okay, do you want to call while I pack my things?"
"yeah" I kiss her and decide to leave the room.