My Philophobia G.D.

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I rested my head on his chest,still looking outside the window with him.

The sun felt so peaceful resting its rays on our bodies.

I felt that he was my happyplace but I couldn't accept that people never made me feel like this before and he did.

He rubbed his hands on my skin."How are you feeling?" he askes me.
"Happy...I think!" I answer,I don't know what my stomach tells me but I feel like I am safe,without any fear.

The only fear I don't want to feel is that one day there could be the possibility that this thing between us will end.

His lips came near my ear,caressing it and sending shivers down my back. "Stay!" he says.
"What?" I ask confused.
"Stay with me,sleep with me...here" he says with his lips still brushing my ear.
"I don't know" I answer not sure of what I should do.We slept together before but after the song and what he said...it feels so much more than just sleeping.
"Please" he begs.

I am not sure fi I should do this.

"Jack is alone with Kylie and I don't want to bother her by asking her to take care of him.Maybe she needs to study" I say turning my body to face him.
"I'll go take him.He can stay with us.I want you to be here"
"I'll call her"I answer.I want to stay here with him,wake up in themorning with him, feel his skin on mine when I lose my senses and fall asleep, have breakfast with him.

ON THE PHONE

"Heyyyy Hailee, did you talk to him?" Kylie answered the phone.

"I...I guess I did"I said smiling.

Grayson looked at me and got near the door "I'll go get something to drink while you talk to her"he wishpers.

"Okay"I smile at him.

"You there HAAILEE"I hear her voice through the phone.

"Oh,yes.I was just answering Grayson"

"Tell me everything"

"Well I wanted tobtalk abpout this when I wuold've got home but Grayson asked me to to stay here tonight!"

"Omg,yes,stay.I'll take care of Jack.You need a little bit of time with him"

"I know but maybeyou have to study.I don't know..."

"Don't fucking try.First of all Jack knows how to behave if I need to study and even if I had to, he wuoldn't bother me.Secodn of all I'm not letting you come her.I wuold also have free time with Jack.Just stay!" she doesn't let me finish.

I'm so thankful to have someone like her in my life.

"Thank you Kylie"I say laughing.

"I love you" she answers.

I hear the door open and soon after see Grayson enter the room with two glasses of orange juice in his hands.

"I love you too"

END IF THE CALL

"I think I'll have to go to the grocery store.We don't have anything to eat" he leaves the glasses on the nightstands.
"You're staying ,aren't you?" he asks sitting on the edge of the bed.
"I can't.I really need to go Gray,I have to stay with Jack!"
"I said he can come here,I'll pick him up" he says with a praying expression.
"I can't,I'm sorry Gray"I try to look serious.

His face is the cutest face I have ever seen, like a baby.

"Uff Hailee. Okay I'll stay home alone"
"You have Ethan"
"He left saying he was going to stay at Bryant's"
"Oh, I'm sorry"
"I'll be fine"I couldn't handle it anymore.
He looked so sad.
"Oh come on, I'm stayin.I'll stay" I take his hands and pull him towards me to make him get up from the bed and hug me.

"You really are?" he says hugging me.
"Yes, I am Gray" he than lifts me up and spins us around.
"You're so happy"I say looking into his deep brown-freen eyes.
"I am.I love how 'Gray' sounds on your lips." he says, sending his stare from my eyes to my lips.

Oh my Gosh,I didn't notice I called him Gray.

I blush and look at our feet.

"Don't be shy.I like it"he says putitng his index finger under my chin to make me look at him.
"I was not paying attention to that"

This is so wakward.

"Fortunatly you didn't.I really like it,for real,don't be shy"

I smile noticing how he doesn't want me to feel uncomfortable.
How was I so lucky to meet him?

"You make me feel so happy"
"I'm glad I do because you make me feel so much more than that" he says brushing his thumb on my cheek.
I don't know how to answer.We just look into eachothers eyes.
I think he noticed that and breaks the silence.

"Do you want to go buy something and prepear the dinner or just go to a restaurant."
"I think I'll go for the first one" I smile.
"I think you'll have to cook then"he jokes.
"It wuold be a pleasure"I say back, closing my eyes and smiling.
"Complete the sentence"he says smiling with a grin on his face.I look at him confused.
"Gray?" I say, understanding what he meant.
"That's way better" he laughs.

I start laughing and throw my arms around his neck.

He kisses me.Not just a simple kiss but repeated kiss that were printed all over my face and every corner of my lips.That made me melt.
He finally kisses my nose and looks  into my eyes.

"I liked it" I smile.
He smiles back at me and takes my hand "let's go, it's already 6 p.m."

We interwine our fingers and he takes his car keys.
We get to the car and I was nearly opening my door but I hear Gray.

"Nooo,wait.I wanted to do this" he said opening the car door for me.
"Oh no,please don't do it again"I like the fact that he wants to make me feel special but I never liked this thing...it feels so fake.He is not, butI have never liked this.

"Why not?" he asks while I hop in the car.
"I just don't like it,but thank you" I don't want to upset him or make him feel stupid or sometype of way.

He doesn't answer, just closes the door and gets in his driveseat.

I am worried I made him feel uncomfortable.

"I didn't mean to ruin that.I'm just not used to those kind of things."I break the silence, looking outside the window.I know how to ruin things.I just did it now.

"You didn't" yes, I did. I noticed the sound of his voice.
"I know I did.I'm sorry"
"We juat have to get to know better each other" he tries to soften the situation.
"I guess so.I'm sorry"
"Stop saying 'I'm sorry'.Nothing happened.It's part of you and I like it"

Oh Grayson.You won't be always like this...that's my fear.You'll ge tired of me

"I'm...Okay"I say stopping the apologize.He laughs and I turn my head to look a him.
That smile,Oh my God.

He was there, with his hand on the steering wheel,while his smile made me happy.

He noticed that I was stearing at him.
His smile hides under his lips and I smile for him.

"Do that more" I say out loud.It was supposed to bee a thought.
"What?" he asks looking at me and than back at the road.
"Smile" I stop for a moment and talk again "your smile...it is special.I like it"
"Don't embarass me!" he says and I notice his red cheeks.
"Didn't mean to" I joke.
He smiles again and tryes to change the subject of the conversation.

"Should we go to a small store or a big one.That's the real question"
"I think privacy feels better" I joke knowing he will understand.
"Yeah, better" he smles.

We get into this small parking lot and we get out of the car.
The car separates us and while we get closer the store and also to eachother he reached his hand out for me to take it.He interwined our fingers , looked at me and smiled.