My Philophobia G.D.

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Jack is already waiting for me near the car.
After 10 minutes of driving we get to Jack's school.

"here we are" I say stopping the car.

"can you come pick me up with Grayson?" he asks closing the passenger door.

"if he'll stay longer of course"

"okay, bye"he smiles.

"have a good day sweetheart" I scream as he starts walking towards the entrance of the school.

I get back home and as I enter the living room I see that nobody's here. I look around the kitchen and there's no sign of Grayson.

I get upstairs and enter my bedroom.

Gray's still sleeping. I get near the bed and lay by his side, holdin my head in the palm of my hand, with my elbow on the pillow.

I take my phone to check if Kylie wrote me back and as I do Grayson's eyes start opening. He is the sweetrs creature on this world,but when he wakes up...uuuufff, damn I don't even want to talk about it.

"good morning" I whisper and smile.

"good morning"he massages his eyes.

"how did you sleep" I ask just looking at him.

"fine" he says with his eyes closed.

He than opens his eyes and looks at me "i need to check on my dad"

"I'll wait for you downstairs while you talk to him"

I get out of the room and I hear Gray's phone ring, waiting for an answer.

I lean against the door and think about how broken Grayson might feel now.

He starts talking and I start leaving the hallway. While I am walking past Jack's room I hear Grayson open the door and whisper my name. I turn around and while he has the phone on his ear he runs towards me and places a quick and soft kiss on my lips. I smile at him and hold his chin with the tips of my fingers. He smiles at me too and I turn around, making my way downstairs again. He gets back in the room and as I step the last stair his voice isn't hearable anymore.

I start making pancakes with Nutella, place some strawberries on top of them and leave the breakfast ready on the withe marble of the counter.

I decide to watch an episode of money heist since I am obsessed with it.

As the third episode of the third season plays on the tv I find myself wanting to check Gray's instagram account.

I feel awkward doing this but his photos are so damn beautiful. I mean, of course they are...he is HANDSOME.

I leave my phone on the big black sofa near me and keep on watching the serie, since it felt too awkward to watch his photo while he is in the same house with me.

After 5 minutes Grayson walks down the stairs and I turn my head bacwards to look at him.

"hey" I smile at him.

"hey" he says back ,looking at the carpet under his feet.

"how are things going?" I ask kneeling on the sofa and throwing my arms on his shoulders and cup his neck with my hands. He doesn't look at me. I move my hand and place my fingers under his chin.

"you can talk to me" I look into his hazel, sweet eyes.

" I know" he smiles. I peck his lips and interlace our fingers, walking towards the counter.

"you don't want to talk about it, do you?" I say reaching his breakfast.

"it is not that I don't want to...I just don't know what to say. My mom is trying to be strong but I know she is more broken than she wants to admit. I talked to my dad and he keeps on joking and smiling."

I don't say anything. He looks broken and I know he is. I just look at him.

"Is this my breakfast?" he asks taking the fork.

"yes"I say still looking at him. I look so stupid staying here with my chin resting on the palm of my hand and saying nothing that could help.

"I'm sorry" I say now looking at the music at the marble and letting my finger follow the black stripes that are through the white color of it.

"uhu?" he asks with his mouth full of pancakes.

"I'm sorry for saying nothing and for not helping you while you go through such a hurtful thing" I don't look at him. I don0t hear him talking and I'm kind of afraif to look at him but I need to see his face.

As soon as I look at him he takes my hand and pulls me towards him, causing me to stand up from the chair I was sitting. I fall on his lap. I look into his eyes.

"do you want to help me?" he asks seriously.

"yeah, I do" I say truly meaning it.

"come with me to Bora Bora" he syas.

"do you think this is the right thing to do?"I ask.

"why not?"

"because you could use those days to spend more time with your dad. He could leave you at anytime and you'll regret that. You can see me whenerver you want, I'll be here for you and for Ethan too, but we don't know if your dad will"

"I know that Hailee...but I know that if I go visit him now I won't be able to handle it and my dad wuoldn't either. I want to make him feel better but if I myself belive that this is happening I won't be able to fake what I feel because he knows me better than I do myself."

"are you sure about that?"

"I am. Come with me please"he begs. I don't answer, I just look at him.

"leave with me tomorrow"

"tomorrow???" I have my eyes wide opened now.

"yes,tomorrow"

"Gray. That's impossible"

"why? It is not. Talk to Noah about Jack and pack your things"

"I...okay. I'll talk to them later"

"I...appreciate that"he talks . That  was awkward. I nearly thought he was going to say those words. I don't say anything but place a kiss on his cheeck.

"that was not a proper kiss" he laughs. he grabs my chin and places a passionate kiss on my lips.