My Philophobia G.D.

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ROMEO'S POV.

"So you mean that it is possible to win everytime we play this game?" I joke sounding annoyed.

"That's exactly what I mean." Hailee answers laughing.

"I think you mean that you're cheating!Just admit that"I said standing up from my chair in order to go turn the music on.

"I think you mean that you're jealous"She teases him.

"HA HA HA" I fake laugh.

After leaving Jack at the Kindergarten Hailee came here and she had lunch with me,Angelica and Kylie.(Angelica is Romeo's girlfriend)

My parents just came and my dad started  dancing with Hailee,Angelica with my mom and my brother Mickey left with Kylie outside, talking I guess.

Hailee is so happpy when she is around us,but when it comes to her family happiness dissappears.I'm so sorry because a couple of weeks ago she had a break down and told me how much she wanted to live in a family where she felt loved,she told me how much she hated the fact that when she looked at my family or other families she thought that she wanted one like them but couldn't have it,where there are problems but that are overcomed thanks to the power of family.I am really sorry she can't have what she dreams about but I also want to show her that she is part of my family ,even if she doesn't feel like that.

When I first met Hailee I was a mess.
I was that kind of guy that ruined his life.I did drugs,always got back home drunk,got in trouble and everyone in my family tried to help me but nobody ever did something for real to help me.I didn't need help to leave drugs, I just used weed to not feel what I had around, because I felt alone.I knew how to stop drugs and shit like that ,I just didn't want to feel alone. But I did.

Than ,one day,after knowing Hailee, she came to me, looked me in the eyes and understood what I needed.

"Do you need to talk?" was what she said.

That day I really was starting to feel tired of waiting for someone to come and save me, I was nearly  giving  up.But than she came and got me out of that shit.

When she asked me that I just cryed.

We spent the day talking and after some weeks I started showing my parents that I changed.One day they wanted to talk to me and I told them who really helped me and that's how Hailee became part of the family.

She saved me and also my parents.

I don't really know how Hailee does this.She says that she likes hurting "After hurting comes always happiness,I just wait and enjoy sadness,It helps me writing songs"that's what she tells me when she is sad.

She's right though...with all the shit that she goes through she finds a way to make that hurt turn into poetry.When she was talking to me about her mom she told me that she forgives her everyday, before falling asleep. I asked her what she meant by that and she just showed me a manuscript that she kept writing when she thought of her mother.

"I used to shut my door while my mother screamed in the kitchen . 

I'd turn the music up, get high and try not to listen

To every little fight, 'cause neither one was right

I swore I'd never be like them

But I was just a kid back then

The older I get the more that I see

My parents aren't heroes, they're just like me

And loving is hard, it don't always work

You just try your best not to get hurt

I used to be mad but now I know

Sometimes it's better to let someone go

It just hadn't hit me yet

The older I get"

She forgives her mom everynight because she knows she isn't a hero and can't be what we want people to be.

She never wanted to make her feel hurt but she knew she did when she didn't answer her in the way she should have done.

She's not mad at her because she let her go, it was better for both of them.

"When I go through a sad day I always wait for the night to come, I sit in my bedroom and complete, step by step ,this song by adding a verse every sad night.Beautiful things take time and this song will take the time it needs"Her words are always so fassinating.