My Philophobia G.D.

15

Hailee's POV.
The time passed away real quick.
It was time to get something to eat and Gray and Jack wanted to eat pizzas so we went for that.
Jack, me and Gray wanted to take dinner at home and eat so they all agreed and we just had to decide who would go to take it.
That was the moment when Grayson talked.
"okay guys what if me and Hailee go and take pizzas and while we go you decide what kind of pizza you want and text us?"he asked
Ethan stared at him for a second while Romeo looked at Grayson like he was wondering something.
Angelica looked at me smiling and I smiled back awkwardly.
In that moment Ethan decided to talk, in order to break the silence.
"that's good for me...we will go home and wait you two there,but where should we go?"
"Oh wait at mine, it's near to the pizzeria we will go" I said
"okay see you there" Ethan said after I gave him the keys of the house.

Me and Grayson walked them to their car and took mine in order to go.
"So...finally alone" Gray said kind of shily.
"yeah, kind of awkward, I am not used to this" I said starting the car.
"oh yeah...by the way, did you tell Romeo something?" he asked
"Actually no, when I had the chance, that night, to talk about us with him I had to talk to him about Angelica.
Their relationship has been kind of messed up lately, because of everything that happened with my brother and things, so I wanted to help her and talk with him" I said watching the road.
"Honestly, Hailee, I have never met someone like you. I mean even if you are having bad or beautiful moments, you think about the others and try to make them happy, that's soemthing so special"
"I take it as a compliment, lol" I said, just because I was nervous.
"it is actually, I mean, I wish I could be like you" he said placing his hand on mine.
I look at him for a moment and I felt like I could talk to him, even if I knew just a part of him.
"Honestly Gray, ever since I was little, nobody ever did something special for me, of course my cousin did, yes, but she is not everyone. I mean, I want to treat people the way they never treated me, just because I know how it feels like you don't exist, and I don't want people to feel that way. "
"trust me Hailee, you succeded in that, actually I can se how people are around you...I have known Romeo for a long time now and he has never been with me and E the way he is when you are around him,it is like you make everyone happy.Everyone around you is better, and feels happy. I feel happy"he said smiling at me.
"thank you Gray"

We arrived at the restaurant and ordered the pizzas that the guys texted us.
Wait Ethen eats pineapple pizza?
Oh my God ahhaha, I knew he was strange but not when it treated about food, I honestly am afraid to buy a pineapple pizza ahhaha, I don't know how it would taste.
"I didn't know Ethan liked pineapple pizza" I laughed
"yes, we both do hahah. You should try that" he said lookin at me
"honestly, I don't think I would like that" I laughed
"okay, wait let's make a deal, you'll try it at home and if it sucks, okay I accept that, but if not, you'll have to do me a favour. Okay?" he said with a grin on his face
"mmmmmm, deal, I like that" I smiled

We took our pizzas and got back in the car.
Grayson decided that he wanted to drive so I let him...okay this might sound strange but I don't usually let people drive my car hahaha, but he is Grayson so I did.

"hey, mmmm, can I take you to a place?" he asked.
"It depends, it is kind of late, but if it doesn't take too much, yes of course"
"no, we will be fast" he said
"yes, than, let's go!" I said, nodding
"well, I have to tell you that this is an important place for me, Ethan doesn't know about this, but I want you to get to know something really important to me, you are the first the person that I take there...so consider yourself a special person" he laughs.
"it will be a pleasure Mr. Grayson Dolan..."
"So this is an important place because, as you know, maybe, I have a dad" he said smiling
I smiled back
"you know, my dad means the world to me, he has been there for me ever since I know him, he did every little thing for me and E and also for my sister, he came at every school game I had, he supported me when I was giving up. If I am here today, having the life I have, is thanks to him. When me and Ethan decided to make vines and started to get kind of known, well, mmm"he stopped for a moment.
I saw that his eyes were watering.
"Hay,Gray, if you don't want to talk about this now, it is okay, you don't have to" I said worried about what he felt.
"No, no is not that I don't want to talk about this, is that, I don't know, this is really hard."
"Okay, wait, than let's just wait till we get to the place you want to take me and then we will talk, if you feel good" I said
"okay" that's all he said

After 4 minutes we arrived.
It was a place in the middle of the woods, it felt good being there.
I could feel the air blowing softly on my face, taking my hair back.
We had to walk for about 2 minutes and than we arrived at this magical place.
There were cliffs, surrounded by woods and flowers,that hugged the water of the lake.
It was so peaceful.

"So, do you feel like talking now?" I asked unsure.
"Yes..."he looked at me and took my hand starting walking.
I looked at our hands and they fitted so good one in another.
"As I said, when we started to get
"famous", we started travelling with the Mcgon boys and everything was perfect, until one day.
After we ended the show, we got in our hotel room and my dad called.
He didn't want to tell us about what was going on, he cared a lot for what we were going through, but he had to 'cause he could have been taken away without even knowing it.
He...mmm"he looked down at the water, where his feet where in, and his eyes started watering again.
"he what Gray" I said moving his chin with my fingers to move his face to face mine. He looked at me and...I was not ready to hear those words.
"He was diagnosed with cancer" he said. And in that moment his tears ran down his ceeks.
I was shocked...I didn't know how to feel. My body froze in that moment.
I took the back of his head and placed it on my shoulder hugging him.
"Grayson, I...I am so sorry" I said with my eyes watering.
He just hugged me back,strongly.
"Is this the place you take your father when you want to be together" I asked.
"Yes...this was the first place I showed him when I came in LA, this is the place in where I told him how I felt about you, when I was jealous about you and your brother, this is the place that helps me to figure out things and that makes me understand what I want in my life..."he looked at me
"this is the place that helped me to understand that I wanted you in my life...this is why I took you here Hailee. After my family you are the person that I want near me and showing you this place is important cause I want this to be mine and your place...where we will come to figure things out and to understand eachother and ourselves"he said.
I looked in his eyes and realised that what he wanted was what I wanted too.
I caressed his chin with my fingers and cupped his face in my hands and kissed him.
It was the kiss that talked for our hearts, a kiss that said to me that I was falling deeply in love with Grayson Dolan.

But do I believe in love? No,I don't...I can't believe in love.Not if love is what people showed me till now.