Shawn Mendes Imagines

thanksgiving special

It's been a few months since Shawn and I broke up. He thought I was being too clingy, and he told me I was always "ruining parties", so he ended things.

Since that day, I haven't been myself.

He was so happy and we were so in love.

When he went to college, his mind set changed.

He was no longer a loving, adorable bean. He changed and became a frat boy. His grades were good, and he was able to have fun.

Shawn attends a college near the west coast (United states) while I attended a college in the east coast. The night before he left was when he broke up with me.

I thought I wasn't good enough because of him. He ruined my self-esteem. Everything he loved about me turned into everything he hated about me.

It was Thanksgiving/fall break, and my friend invited me to spend some time with her in Arizona. I was hesitant at first because I knew Shawn went to the same college as her. She somehow convinced me to fly across the country.

As I got off the plane, I saw my best friend. I ran to her and gave her the biggest hug.

"I missed you!" she exclaimed.
"I missed you too. Happy Thanksgiving." I smiled.
"Happy thanksgiving, you Turkey." she laughed.

"You ready to go? You have everything?" she asked.
I nodded.

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"You can leave your bags here for now, and we can get it tomorrow."
I nodded.
"So my roommate is home, so you'll get to meet her."
"Cool."

She opened the door of her shared apartment, and the smell of vanilla scented candles flooded into my nose. It smelled nice.

"Amelia!" she yelled.
"What?" a voice yelled back.
"Come meet my best friend!"
"Coming!"

"Hey," she smiled at me, "I'm Amelia."
"Y/n," I smiled back, "nice to meet you."
"Nice to meet you too."

"Oh, by the way, y/b/f/n (your best friend's name), Shawn said he's on his way." Amelia said, walking back into her room.

My eyes widened.

"Listen, don't be mad at me-"
"Y/b/f/n!" I yelled. "You told me-"
"I know, I know, but I think it will be good for you two to talk-"
"For us to talk? He doesn't even care about me anymore. He stopped caring six months ago!"
"Exactly. Six months. You guys need closure!"
"What's the point in closure when it's already over?"
"Your relationship may have healed a while ago if you talked to him!"
"I don't want to be in a relationship with someone who constantly breaks my heart! He ruined me, Amelia."
"I know, and I want you two to heal together."
"He's fine. He's been fine."

"What? He hasn't been fine. Ever since college started, he has constantly tried to figure out a way to contact you, but chickened out and thought you wouldn't talk to him. Right now is the perfect opportunity for you two to figure out the thing between you guys."
"There is no thing going on between us!"
"Okay, okay. If there's no thing going on between you two, you'll be fine with him joining us for our thanksgiving dinner, right?"
I bit my lip.

"Right." I sighed.
"Great." she smiled.

The door bell rang.

"That should be Shawn."
When she opened the door my heart began beating very fast.

He was still the same gorgeous boy I fell in love with, but looks can be deceiving.
He was smiling, but as soon as he recognized me, his smile faded.

His smile was no longer as bright, and his eyes were no longer soft.

"What is she doing here?" he asked y/b/f/n, looking at me with a disgusted face.

I bit my lip, trying not to let the tears cascade.

"Shawn, y/n is having thanksgiving dinner with us tonight and will be staying for the next few days." she explained calmly.

He kept glaring at me.

I looked away from him.

"Okay then. Um, I'm going to be right back. Uh, Amelia! Come down here!"
"Yep, okay bye guys."

They both said quickly, and shut the door before either of us could protest.

The tension in the room was unbearable as he kept glaring at me.

"Why do you hate me?" I was able to ask without breaking down.

His expression softened.

"Wh-what?"

My breath hitched. His voice brought butterflies in my stomach.

"W-why do you hate me?"
"I-I don't hate you."
"It seems like you do." A tear escaped.

He took a step closer to me, wiping the tear from my face.

"Things are complicated right now."
"When is it not?" I laughed softly, as more tears begin to fall down my face. I quickly wiped them away.
He gave me a small smile.

"I'm-I'm sorry about that night." he said.
I bit my lip, looking at the floor.

He lightly lifted my chin, staring into my eyes.

"Did you meet someone new?"
I pushed myself away from him.

"Why does that matter?" I ask, crossing my arms.

"Y/n-"
"Why would you care?"

"I was just curious."
"If you really want to know, no, I didn't. I'm assuming you did though."

"No, I didn't. I-I couldn't."
"W-what?"

He hesitated, but said, "I kept thinking about you."
I bit my lip.

"I kept thinking about you too." I whispered

He moved closer to me.

"Can we start again?" he asked, grabbing a hold of my hands.
"Shawn-"
"I know it's a lot, but we can be great again, I promise."
"I can't date you when all I can think about is you and some other girl."

I pulled my hands away from him.

"What?"
"I've seen your snaps. You clearly had something going on with someone and I-I-"
"She was a distraction."
"That doesn't matter. I-"

"I still love you and I'm so so sorry for being a complete jerk to you. You were never clingy and I'll do whatever it takes to have you in my arms. I miss you so much and I don't want us to be angry at each other anymore."
"Shawn, I was never mad at you-"
"Stop lying."

"I'm not lying. Ever since we broke up, I spent everyday thinking about you. Do you know how much it hurts to see the person you love be with someone else? I don't want to get hurt again."
"And I promise to never hurt you ever."

"Promises are made just to be broken."

"Y/n-"
"You know it's true."

"I won't break my promise."
"That's what they all say."
"But I mean it."

I sighed and said, "And I'm a fool to believe you."
I held my hand out to him.
He smiled and grabbed my hand.

"Will you be mine again, y/n?"
"Only if you'll be mine again."
I smiled and he moved closer to me, wrapping his arms around me.

I felt safe.

"Happy thanksgiving, Shawn."
"Happy thanksgiving, babe."

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Hey, happy holidays <3

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