Shawn Mendes Imagines

// Request 7 //

Request for denadaanywhere

Some parts of this may be triggering for some. Please proceed with caution. Viewer discretion is advised. I changed since things, I hope you don't mind. Sorry it took a while.

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"Hey, Blessing, do you wanna hang out later tonight?" Shawn asked.
"I can't. I already have plans with Mohamed."
"Right. Okay. I'll see you later then?"
"Of course." I said, smiling. "Bye, Shawn."
"Bye, B."
I hung up the phone and went to Mo's house. I didn't realize that he would invite some of his other friends.

"Hey?"
"Hey, B! Come in! I'm sorry I didn't tell you about inviting other people over."
I shrugged. "It's fine." I smiled.

When we went into his living room, I noticed that all the girls in there were all smaller than me. I couldn't help but to feel insecure about myself. I really wished I would've said yes to Shawn.

"Pizza is coming in a bit!" one of his friends said.
I pulled Mo aside.
"Hey, Mo, um I forgot I needed to do something. I-um-I think I need to go."
"What? You just got here though!"
"I know, but I need to go do something."
"Fine. Whatever. I'll see you later?"
I nodded, rushing out of his house and going into my car.

"Shawn?"
"Hey, what's up?"
"Can I come over?"
"Yeah, of course. What's wrong?"
I put my phone on speaker and put it on the passenger seat.
"Nothing, I'm fine."
"Um, okay. I'll see you in a bit."
He hung up before I could say anything.
I took a deep breath before driving to Shawn's house.

Once I got there, I knocked on the door. Shawn quickly opened it.

"Change of plans?" he asked, sitting down. I snuggled into his chest.
"Yeah, he invited other people over too."
"Oh. Without telling you?"
I nodded. He wrapped his arms around me.

"Well, you have me." Shawn smiled.

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For the past few weeks, I haven't been talking to many people lately.

*TW: ED SKIP UNTIL YOU SEE A NOTE*

I also didn't have much of an appetite. I may have been able to eat two full meals on a good day. I would just eat an apple and then I would be fine for the rest of the day.

It's not like I woke up one day and thought, "Hmm, I'm not hungry. Hey, let's just not eat for the rest of the week!"

It's not that I don't want to eat. It's the thought of food that makes me feel uneasy. Mo still invites those people over when he asks me to hang out and I always end up leaving because I can't stand to look at myself when I'm near his friends.

*END OF TW*

Mo has noticed some things changing, and so have my mom.

"Has your mom made any comments about you? Your habits? The way you dress? Did she tell you that you talk too much?"
I shook my head.

"I don't get it, what's wrong?"
I shrug.

"I don't know what you want me to do."
I stared at him.

"Please, just tell me something. Say anything."
"I'm sorry." I whisper, playing with my fingers.

I heard him sigh and looked at him.

"I love you, B. I'm always here for you. Maybe we don't hang out as much anymore, but you're always going to be my best friend."
I hugged him.

"I have to go before my parents come over to my house. I'll text you tonight before I go to bed."
I nodded and he left.

I texted Shawn.

B: are you free tonight?
S: yeah. Can I come over?
B: yes please.
S: I'll be right over

I smiled.

I hate that I'm acting the way I am, but I read some stupid magazine and it said that the "perfect girl/woman must be thin, but have curves, and quiet, etc". I know I shouldn't listen to it, but I can't stop thinking about it. It's 2019. All bodies are different and beautiful. All personality traits are beautiful. Gender roles and stereotypes shouldn't exist, but they do.

I heard a knock on the door.

"Hey, B."
I smiled, hugging him. He came in and closed the door behind him.

"Do you want to play a board game?"
"Sure." I said, quietly.

"Do you have Monopoly?"
Of course I do.

I nodded and went to get it down from a shelf. We set the board up and began playing.

After a few heated rolls, I yelled, "That's my property! You forgot to give me the card!"
"What? It's your fault! You forgot to remind me!"
"Oh, so it's my fault?"
"Yes, now I wanna but it!"
"But I already bought it!"
"Blessing, I want it though!"
"Shawn Peter Raul Mendes-"
"I love it when you yell."
I rolled my eyes.

For the rest of the night, we played monopoly and then fell asleep.

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*okay, hi I just wanted to say that yes, I did write about some things that can be touchy  for some and I just want to clear things up. I am in no way romanticizing anything that people may be considered triggering. I don't know much about certain triggers. Please remember that societies standards of  "beauty" isn't true. You're all beautiful. If you or a loved one is struggling, please remember that there is help. You got this. I believe in you.

Okay, have a great day/night x