Shawn Mendes Imagines

"Be with her instead."

Kinda sad so um sorry? My feelings are everywhere right now.

[UNEDITED]

"Leave me alone, please." I begged him, as I began turning away. I began running away from him.
"Wait, come back, y/n!" Shawn yelled, running up behind me.

"Shawn, I told you already-"
"But let me make this right."
"You can't. Just-just leave me alone."

"Wait!" he said, holding onto my arm, spinning me around to face him. "I love you. I love you so so much, y/n. I can't lose you-"
"You should of thought about that when you lied to me. Do you really think I'm not as good as your ex? I thought you were my boyfriend."
He didn't say anything. I turned away from him and began walking away.

Shawn and I had a relationship for about nine months. When his ex broke up with him, I was the first person he came to. He was my best friend. After he healed from heartbreak he told me he wanted to move on from her. After a few months, he asked me to go on a date with him. I agreed and we slowly became something special.

We were supposed to hang out tonight with his friends. I came late to his house, but I heard him talking about me.

"Yeah, y/n is as good as her. She was literally the best girlfriend." he said.

When I came in, he acted as if nothing happened. I looked at his friends' facial expressions and they were confused and shocked.

"Oh, hey, babe." he said, holding out his hand for me.
"I'm not as good as her?"
"W-what?" he asked, standing up.

He tried to get close to me, but I pushed him away.

"I knew you wouldn't love me like you loved her. You never got over her, did you?" I asked, trying not to cry.
"Listen, y/n-"
"Stop! Just answer me. Everything you said to me was a lie, wasn't it?"
"No! I do love you. I love you so much. You drive me crazy every time I see you. I-I-"
"No, you don't. Leave me alone." I said, running out of his house.

I really thought he loved me. His feelings were all fake.

"Y/n! Please let me explain!" he yelled.
"What's there to say?" I turned around and stared at him. "You told them I wasn't as good! You lied to me! I gave you my everything and you-"
"Stop! I love you, please!" he said, trying to grab my hands.
"Shawn, you don't love me. You love her. Your face always lights up when you hear her name. I've heard you even say her name in your sleep sometimes. Maybe you should get back together with her."
"But-but you mean everything to me. I love you with all my heart. I'm sorry I wasn't the best boyfriend, but everything I felt was real. The feelings I feel while I'm with you is nothing but love and happiness. Please don't leave me."
"I can't. You-you still love her. Don't lie to me. Please. You still think of her, don't you?"
He didn't say anything.

"Shawn, as much I don't want to be here with you right now, I want you to be happy. You clearly still love her. Find her and be with her. You don't love me. I'm so upset that you believed you loved me even though your heart told you to be with her instead. You lied for nine months, and I love you, but I couldn't live with myself if I still had you in my life. I want you to be happy, even if it's with her. Be with her instead. After today, please don't find me or text me anymore. If I let you go, I don't want to have you in my life anymore as a constant reminder of what happened today. Please understand that. If you really do love me, you would respect that. I'm sorry I wasn't enough to fill that empty space in your heart." I said, letting go of his hand. He was about to speak but I said, "Goodbye, Shawn."

When I started walking away, he didn't follow. I let him go because it was for the best. Although, a part of me wished he proved me wrong and followed me. I wish he told me how he really felt. I just hope he's happy now.