"Alright, I'm going to tell you something." I say, crossing my arms and looking over I him. "I don't need you, Luke. Your to smart to think that, and so am I." I say, telling him what he wants to hear.
"I know." He mumbles, leaning into the railing of the look out.
"I want you, luke. I want you more than I've ever wanted anything." I say, slowly dropping my arms. "A want so intense that I would rather die than live to do anything except fulfill it."
He looks over to me, shaking his head.
"So this is what you took me out here for, luke? To tell me that, what, you don't want to be here anymore because no one needs you? Just because no one needs you doesn't mean no one wants you."
"El, I-" he says, cutting himself off with a sigh. "I don't see a reason. I'm not taking you out here to tell you that I'm commuting suicide or something, I just, I just need your help, El."
"Luke, tell me what to do. I'll help you, I swear it." I mumble
"I need you to tell me something, El." He mutters, turning to face me, and walking closer. I can feel my cheeks heat, the red obviously showing in the colder weather. "What would you do, Noel- What would you do if I wasn't here?"
I stare up at him for a moment, my eyes closing.
"I- I'm not sure." I say, my voice shaking along with my hands.
"El, please. I need this." He says, his voice sounding like he's about to cry, and by the puffiness of his eyes I wouldn't doubt it.
"I-I would probably, uh..." I say, my shivering hands moving up to the back of his head. "At first I would be to shocked to realized that if I called you, you would no longer answer." I say, my eyes filling with water at the thought. "And then when I realized there would be no more Luke to talk about poetry, and no more Luke to watch stupid movies like Finding Nemo with, I would sit down, and stare into nothing. I would think of everything I could have done to stop you, and everything I could have done to make you happier. I would then realize that If I wouldn't have been so blind to your emotions and your feelings that you would actually be here with me, and we would be by the stupid pond you pushed me into that one time, and we would still be us." I say, biting my lip to keep it from trembling. I had allowed the coldness of the air to over take me now, anything was better than the warmth threatening to spill through my body at the thought of Luke being gone. "at first everyone would think I was stupid, Luke. For crying over a boy I've barley known for three months. To them love shows a time, but to us," I whisper, putting the palm of my hand on his cheek. "Luke, we fell in love in a matter of days."
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May double update I absolutely love the speech thing I can't handle
I think the book is over next chapter um
