Fates cross AmaimonxReader

Amaimons pov

"Let me out!" I yell through the bars of my cell, I could escape I'm stronger than these humans, but I don't want to do anything stupid.
I don't want to lose y/n.
"Would you shut up already!" Rin snarls at me from the back of the cell, "if I could shut you up myself I would!"
I turn on him growling, "is that a threat?"
"What if it is?" He snickers leaning forward, "what are you gonna do about it?"
It takes all of my will power not to tackle him and rip his eyes out, eyes can make great bouncy balls. I shake my head, I can't, I have to think of y/n. She's waiting for me, she has to miss me.
She's going to be my queen. I have to be good.
"Nothing... I'm not going to do anything," I sink down to a crouch in the corner. I dig through my pockets glad to have some candy stored.
"Nothing?" Rin frowns looking me over, "What's wrong with you?"
"I want to leave..." I pop a lollipop in my mouth doing my best to ignore his staring.
"Yeah I do too, but you're not even going to try to kill me?"
"I want to," I glance up at him making sure to keep my face expressionless, "but I want y/n more."
"Oh...." his cheeks turn the slightest shade of pink and I feel my blood start to boil.
Why is it so hard to stay calm?
"So uh... what's it like having a soulmate?" Rin scoots slightly closer to me.
I ignore his question letting my thoughts drift to y/n, maybe she'll play a game with me once I get let out. They have to let me out, brother would never let them keep me.
An exorcist comes by to make sure none of us have escaped or tried to, he glares at me. I think Mephisto told me about this guy. He has long blonde hair and looks really grumpy. I would like to smother him with boulders just from the way he is looking at me.
Does everyone else still see me as a monster?
What if y/n would start to think like that...?
I shake my head again, I don't think I've ever thought this much. I don't even feel bored here, I think I might be anxious? Perhaps scared?
I don't like this feeling....
I want to be in y/n's dorm eating candy and watching her draw pictures.
I want to be near her, I want to hug her....
Why can't I just be with her?
I've never felt like this before....
I've never felt anything before her, why does feeling have to hurt so much?
"Filthy demons," the guard snorts looking in at us for a moment longer, "I should just kill you all myself."
Rin glares at him as the man leaves walking slowly as if to brag about his freedom. I hate him and I don't even remember who he is.
I pull my knees up to my chest, I don't know why but I feel small. If I could I would fade into the walls that surround me.
"Amaimon?" Rin touches my arm lightly, I almost dig my nails into his skin, but I stop my hand from touching him within inches of his flesh.
"What?" I grumble wrapping my arms around my knees and looking at him over my elbows.
"Gotta be honest you're kinda freaking me out, are you sick?"
"I don't think I can get sick," I frown, is he worried about me?
"Then what's wrong?"
"I..I think I miss y/n," I say quietly averting my eyes from his now. I bury my face in my knees as I feel heat in my cheeks, "I want to leave so I can just see her again. I think I'm scared..."
"You?" He sounds stunned, "I didn't even think you could get scared!"
"Neither did I."
"Don't worry then," he smiles a little bit, "They'll get us out of here soon."
I nod at him, I don't believe him. I want to though, I want to believe him more than anything.
I want to be with y/n right now more than anything, even more than candy and games. I just want to feel her arms around me again.