Never thought that's how the whole school would know where I really come from. To be honest, it's hard to get me mad, and her yelling at me, throwing lies into my face, it kinda pissed me off.
I only cried after Aaron tried to get me to spill as if he could understand me, no one at this school knows what I go through every day.
Every morning it's a constant struggle even finding a will to live, all I say is that when I get out, and no one is being forced to care for me, then I can end all this pain that is bottling up inside me with no way to release it.
"Y/N. Y/N," I turn the corner, ignoring the fact that Gene is calling me. "Y/N!" He grabs my hand, I yank free and turn to him.
"Screw off, Gene, I am not in the mood," He looks me up and down.
"I can see that," I turn around, waving him off before he grabs my hand again. I turn to him, my hand in a fist, and about ready to knock the shit out of him.
"Let go of my hand, before I lose my shit," He pushes me against the wall, hard, and I stare at him.
"Do I need to remind you who is boss here? Me. Okay, N/N? You don't get to boss me around, just because you have your little crappy background does not mean you can take advantage of me."
"Who said I'm trying to take advantage of you, I'm only speaking my mind, and when I get mad, I'm very pissed, Gene. Now, Leader of the Shadow Knights, can you let go of me before we start to attract attention?"
"No," I raise my brow at his answer.
"What? Are you going to beat the shit out of me? Mentally or verbally abuse me? Huh?"
"No I'm not going to do any of that," I scoff mentally. Yeah, right.
"Then what are going to do?" My voice becomes lower, laced with fear.
"Nothing," I suppress the sigh I was so close to exhaling. "Yet," Knew it. "But at that party tomorrow-"
"I'm not going-"
"Oh you're going," He interrupts me, I shrink back. "At the party, you're going to be with us, not those little excuses of friends that you've made but us, is that understood?"
"And how are you going to make me," He grabs my chin and pulls me close to his face, so close I can feel his breathing on the tip of my nose.
"You've vaped with us, smoked pot with us, illegally entered a club-"
"But that was one time!" I exclaim, looking around.
"Still happened. Guess who I can tell to get you into some really big trouble?" Ms. Rose.
"Vice Principal Rose," I mutter.
"Exactly, and I know how she babies you so, that is not going to end very well," I think of all the things, all the possibilities that could happen if he told. Wait.
"Gene, are you blackmailing me?" My teeth grit, this is something I most certainly did not want happening to me. He smirks.
"Some would call it that-"
"You're using the information against me,"
"Then yes, yes it is blackmail."
"And what if I told Dante, Aphmau is a good friend to him." He leans in, his hands blocking a way out.
"You tell Dante, Aphmau- the Ro'Meave about this conversation, I will make sure that you'll never have the chance at a family." I can't help but laugh, that's his threat? The hell, this guy knows nothing about me apparently.
"I don't know if you can tell, Gene, but I don't need a family. To have a family you need happiness and hope. You and I both know, that will never happen."
"Well, the world works in strange ways, and usually even the hopeless people get happy endings."
"My happy ending is death. I don't want a family, Gene. Irene forbid." I punch him in the stomach, walking away as he groans. Asshole.
...
I can't go to that party, Diana would never let me even if the world depended on it.
I'll never get a family, all thanks to my parents who probably knew I would be this way. Depressed, suicidal, and so deprived of self-love there's a blanket draped over the mirror.
That's how damaged I am.
"Y/N," I jump, surprised at the hand on my shoulder. Looking further behind the hand, I see Katelyn, and my heart stops. Here we go, here's the part where she says she can't be my friend anymore.
"Katelyn, I understand, you don't want to be friends with me anymore and that's okay, I'm used to it by now," She looks at me with confusion.
"What are you talking about? Do you seriously think I'm going to stop liking you as a friend just because you're in the foster system?" Well, yeah. "Who is so cruel and vain to do something like that?!"
"A lot of people, actually- wait," I shake my head. "You still... still want me as a friend?" I don't believe this. I don't want to believe this, this is a joke, some kind of prank or something... isn't it?
"You're a really good person, Y/N. Yeah, I've only known you a short time but, you seem like a really good person," She explains, my face just has... nothing.
Not a smile, not a grim, scowling expression, but just shock just written all over it. I have no words to describe what's going on, but I just don't know... how to respond.
"I don't understand," I turn to her. "You still want to be around me?" I just need some clarification.
She puts both of her hands on my shoulders.
"Do I need to knock some sense into you? C'mon, Y/N, Aph, me, even Laurence and Garroth would never stop being your friend just because of where you come from."
"That's like saying I would stop being friends with Aph because she's Hispanic," She has a point, it doesn't make sense. "See how stupid that sounds?"
"Ethnicity is nowhere near the amount of pain being in the system causes. Where children have been abandoned by their parents and living knowing they were not enough for them," I look at her.
"Okay so, maybe it's a little more intense," I can't help but softly laugh. "But that doesn't mean that anyone should view you differently, we're all human-well, let me correct myself, we all have hearts, and should learn to use them properly. If anyone is going to bully you for being in the foster system, screw them, they deserve to go to hell, but not anyone I know." She tells me. I look at her. Why is she doing this? Why is she being so accepting?
"Throughout my life, Katelyn, all I've felt is loneliness. In the system, we are constantly bullied, and taken for granted. I lived with Ginny, that's why her and I always fought. But, all my 'friends-'" I do the quote thing with my fingers. "-at some point, always betray me, how do I know that you guys won't do the same?"
"Because we are most certainly not those type of people. Aphmau is one of the kindest souls I have ever met, you can always count on me to stick up for you, Garroth and Laurence are... there to flirt," I chuckle, wiping a stray tear. "Travis is there to make you feel loved-"
"Who's Travis?" I ask.
"Another one of our friends that you'll meet along with Teony, then Kawaii~Chan... but, there're all good people so you shouldn't worry. Even Dante." I look down. "Friends are always there for you. Especially best friends."
"No offense Katelyn, but I've only known you-what- a two months now? Two months and a half?" I sigh. "Trusting is too hard, especially with someone like me."
"I understand that, take your time, but never forget that we're right here, prepared to help you with anything." She smiles. This feels... unreal. I'm scared. By the look in her eyes, I could tell she's telling the truth.
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HIDDEN PAIN 𐦍 GarrothXReader
Teen Fiction"I'm scared to be loved," ━─━─━━─━「₪」━━─━─━─━ It's been a hard life for Y/N. Ever since she was born, she's been thrown into a string of foster homes that haven't treated her well. Abuse and fear have riddled her life. Until she reaches one home...
