Deal or no Deal (#teambabe)

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Alyssa

I swear I felt my heart jumps like it wants to get out of my chest and run to the person standing at the other side of the court holding a microphone.

She doesn't look comfortable with the spot light on her plus the fact that all eyes inside the arena are focused on her, too.

Typical Mika, hates attention.

But thinking that she might be doing it for me makes me felt giddy and happy.

Even from afar, I could feel the intensity of her stares.

Huminga muna sya ng malalim habang nakapikit ng mariin ang mga mata na para bang sa pamamagitan nun ay makakaipon sya ng sapat na lakas ng loob upang ipagpatuloy ang nasimulan at hindi tumakbo palayo.

She released one last deep sigh and her stares landed on me the moment she opened her eyes like her eyes knew where they can find me.

"Hey." Is the only word she managed to say when our eyes met.

I smiled and she giggled. She even mouthed "I miss you" which I'm sure was witnessed by everyone since her face is on the big screen ahead of us.

I keep myself steady because anytime, I might run to her and hug her and I will be missing something that she is about to do. I mean, she will not hold that mic , with the spotlight on her if she is not planning to do something....

...special? That I am not certain though so I stood there frozen and waited for her next moves.

Tahimik lang ang mga taong nanonood. Malamang gulat pa ang ilan sa kanila o nagtataka kung para saan ang pakulong ito ni Mika.

Ang iba sa kanila ay marahil mayroong idea ngunit wala naman silang natanggap na confirmation sa mga kumalat na issue before tungkol sa aming dalawa.

"I have never thought of doing this even in my wildest dreams. Alam ng lahat una pa lang how I hated being the centre of everyone's attention but I really have to do it. I must do it if I want this person back in my life. Ilang beses na kasi akong urong sulong sa kanya at siguro ay naiinis na sya sa mga mixed signals ko. Baka nalilito na din sya at iniisip na nagtitrip lang ako." Huminto muna sya at muli ay huminga ng malalim. Nakangiti man ay kita ko ang lungkot sa kanyang mga mata habang nakatingin sa akin.

"Pero hindi ako nangtitrip. Aaminin ko natakot ako dahil bago 'to sa'kin. Natakot talaga ko sa iisipin at sasabihin ng iba hindi lang dahil sa we're both girls-" She stopped when majority of the crowd gasped on her revelation. I saw hesitation on her eyes, too, if she will continue or not. Hindi ko naman sya masisisi.

More or less, mahigit 25,000 ang pumunta para manood ng live dito sa arena idagdag mo pa ang mga nanonood sa mga live streaming sites.

Muli syang humugot ng malalim na buntong-hininga bago nagpatuloy magsalita.

Quota na sya sa buntong - hininga ngayon.

"Yeah. So like I said, we're both girls. Nakita mo naman siguro pa'no sila magreact like I have committed a crime. Hindi pa nila nalalaman nyan sino yung girl na tinutukoy ko ah? Paano pa pag nalaman nila kung sino ka? Baka hindi na ako makalabas ng buhay sa arenang 'to." Natawa naman siya sa sinabi ni Mika maging ang ilan sa mga kasama nya at mga nanonood. "Pero sa ngayon, that'll be on the bottom list of my priority. I've been considering others for so long. How they will look at me or how they will see me. To the point that I have forgotten about me. Sorry kung pakiramdam mo lagi kitang tine-take for granted. Hindi ko yun intensyon. Takot lang ako tulad ng iba pero mahal kita. There! Nasabi ko na. Mahal nga kita. So please, let me prove it to you. Hindi ko alam kung sapat na ba 'tong gagawin ko para sa lahat ng pagkukulang ko sa'yo but I wanna give it a try. At least I've tried."