January 04, 2019
I knew this day would come.
When I will see you standing before everyone of us, announcing one of the biggest announcements anyone would have for their loved ones. Well, I thought he'll be with you when you'll announce it but wait, where is he? But I guess that spared me from much more pain.
You look so happy when you announced that you're engaged. I'm happy for you, too, please trust me I am, you are my bestfriend, I want you all the happiness in this world. Yet at the same time, why do I feel my heart is breaking?
It's been years, 3? 4? When we both accepted na hindi tayo para sa isa't-isa. Remember when you broke up with him just to choose me but I was so afraid I didn't give us a chance. That's my biggest regret in life.
I'm happy for you, Den. All the talks we had of finding that bliss. That pure happiness. You found them with him. I'm happy for you, Den, I know you kind of lost your way, but he stayed and walked beside you til you found the right path again. It took you liters of tears to find that peace within, and he patiently waited and helped you to find it. I'm happy for you, Den, for finally finding someone who's worth the risk, because you said that marriage will be the biggest risk you will ever take.
He's everything I'm not and he did everything I didn't.
He deserves you.
You deserve him.
I'm happy for you, Den.
But why does it hurt?
