You arrive at your flat and rush to your bedroom, you frantically grab everything from your wardrobe and lay it down on your double bed, examining every item and trying to find something good to wear. You didn't know why you were worrying so much. After what seemed like hours of searching, you pull out your black crop top and some old leggings, still unhappy with your clothing choice. It wasn't like a date, and you weren't supposed to be even seeing him, but you still felt the need to look nice for Alex. You wanted to impress him, and you didn't quite know why.
At around 8pm your phone vibrated with a message. Your heart starts beating fast and you open the message. It was Al, of course.
"I'm outside" the message read,
"..and nervous" another message read, coming instantly after the previous one.
You smile at his sweetness, you thought you were the only nervous one. Alex's cocky nature often hides the fact he is a sensitive guy.
"Come up," you text back. When you press send your heart starts racing, you take a deep breath and pour a glass of wine for yourself. You had no idea why Alex was coming over, you guessed he just wanted to fuck you / make out with you. Although you weren't really setting any boundaries at all, like you should be since he did cheat on you, you weren't going to let him walk in and expect you to fuck him and forgive him. You were willing to hear him out and see what happened after that, because you were sick of all the sleepless nights. You felt you were shameful to women because you were just letting Alex back into your life, when he didn't deserve to be. You often were told by your friends
that you can be happy and independent or that you don't need Alex to be happy, but after these last few days it felt like he was the only thing on the universe that made you feel happy.
Suddenly, there was a knock on the flat door. You open it,nervously, to Alex. He looked amazing. He had a white shirt on with some casual blue jeans. He pushes his hair back nervously and looks at the floor.
"You look fit, Darcy," he says, still looking to the floor, with a slight smirk on his face. You struggle not to smirk back, instead you stand with a straight face.
"Hey, thanks. I have no idea why you're here, so I guess come in." you say, holding the door for him.
"You let me come over, Darcy." he says. One arm is behind his back.
"What are you hiding?" You ask suspiciously. He smiles cheekily, his brown eyes looking you in the eye. Finally, he pulls out a single rose and hands it to you.
"This isn't a date, Alex." You say, talking the rose from him, smiling.
"I didn't say it was" he says, giving you a cheeky grin. You rolled your eyes and sit on the sofa with your legs crossed. He joins you awkwardly. It is silent for a couple of seconds before you hear Al gulp.
"I'm so sorry" he says quietly. You grunt in response, you'd heard that word come from his mouth one million times. He looks up at you, straight into your eyes.
"You really think I would cheat on you? I was so drunk, Darcy. Nobody in their right mind would cheat on you,ever. I went out and got drunk because you blurted out you didn't love me in the argument we had the night before. I just went out and drank, can after can, shot after shot, bottle after bottle. I wanted to make you love me so I thought if I made you jealous you'd realise you loved me. I was so fookin stupid and I messed up so much. I loved you, I still do love you." He says, he looks down to the floor and then puts his head in his hands.
You shuffle over to him on the sofa, put your arms around him and kiss his cheek. He puts his arms around you too and starts kissing your lips, you can hear him sighing with relief. He then starts to sob, he stops kissing you and cups your face with his small hands, staring at every detail. Tears were streaming down his face and you felt his thumbs stroking your cheeks. You didn't know why he was crying but it made you cry. He kissed every tear that fell from your eye and then placed your head on his chest, he started drawing circles on your back with his fingertips sleepily and you stayed that way for the rest of the evening.
//lmao this was so sappy!!! there's so much crying in this omg lol but idk I kinda like bc im a sucker for cute things it I hope you enjoyed it too:-))//
