Scattered Stars

Chapter 18

Dian

"So what are you going to do about Johan?" I ask Naledi as I helped her hang up her poster on one of the computer class windows.

"I am going to give him some space and some much needed time to cool off... I'm such an idiot." She groans the last part." What did Pete say?"

"To be honest the idea that men find him attractive excites him and he seems flattered, but you know he's straight and all." I shrug. Pete couldn't stop boasting the entire time at school and I was getting fairly annoyed by it.

"At least he didn't freak out, you know." I handed her a pin so she could pin the poster to a notice board.

"Pete,is pretty much laid back a lot of times,or he just doesn't really care about the shit the world seems to be obsessed about." I assure her.

We spend the rest of the second break walking around the school hanging her posters. She was really grateful that I took off some of my studying time to help her. That's right,I normally spend my second breaks studying if I'm not hanging with my friends. This young lady has changed me,and for the better might I add.

We practically spend the entire day together,with Johan not talking to her and Pete attending some classes to boost his marks. I really did enjoy spending time with her,so I was not complaining.

With her in such a gloomy mood we didn't really do much making out,we just studied a lot more and she helped me out with the Newtons Laws that were giving me a headache.

We went downstairs to the kitchen to have a bit of lunch and unfortunately Jabu was out shopping with my mother,but they would soon be back. And I was not going to let Naledi starve so I put on a little black apron and tried...key word, tried to make us a sandwich.

The look of pure horror on her face told me not only did it look bad it would probably also taste horrible.

"Wow,it looks different..." She said cautiously while picking at the olive sticking out of the wet bread.

"You don't have to eat it you know..."I said shyly as I took off the apron and put it on the counter.

I had learnt to be a lot more confident about myself especially after my depressive state,but I had my moments of insecurity especially around Naledi. I was no longer the rugby captain of the school's team,I was no longer a chick magnet,I was no longer the loud ,confident, outspoken guy. I was now the guy who spent his time focused on his books and people who cared about him like my friends. I spent my time on my photography,taking pictures and editing. I was getting hired for a few more jobs and that was giving me enough to focus on like Palesa and Johan's new project.

And I want to be the perfect guy for her,I want her to forget the existence of the human male species whenever she's around me ;especially that idiot Sean.

I guess I am jealous of Sean,even though she has reassured me countless times that nothing is happening or has ever happened between them. But I can't help that nagging feeling that maybe Sean is better than me because he actually plays rugby, he has a great sense of humour and I guess most importantly because he's black, with him she wouldn't be concerned about racial barriers or any cultural barriers like she would if she would be in a relationship with me.

"Oh thank God. Because I really hate olives." She says with a sigh of relief.

"Hey,don't pout." I didn't realise i was pouting,she stood up and walked around the island and stood in front of me. It kind of hurt that she didn't like the food,but I was glad she was being honest with me.

"You...get...an...A...for...effort." she says between kisses. She tries moving away after the last kiss but I pull her closer, kissing her even more.