Scattered Stars

Chapter 24

Dian

I looked up at the board standing a few tables away from me, I could see the time written on the it with fifteen-minute intervals, each scratched out except for two indicating that there were only thirty minutes left and she still wasn't here. 

I was trying to calm my breathing because I was worried about her, I had heard on the news that there was a violent protest going on in the streets of the township.

Gaah, I clenched my hand. It was still bruised from beating Noah up. I keep telling myself to stay out of her life but it's so hard when she is everywhere around me.

The moment I saw what happened with Noah I lost my shit, all I saw was black and red and my mind was on an automated destroy mode. If it wasn't for security, I would have sent that fucker to the hospital.

With all my attempts to push her out of my life, I just end up reeling her in, even more, I don't know what I was thinking dancing with her like that at the Winter Ball. I know why I did it, the moment I saw Sean with his fucking hands on her, all the insecurities I felt pertaining to their relationships came crashing on me like a wall of bricks. The way she smiled at him, the way she moved so easily with him, it ticked me off and it took every bit of restraints I had not to harm Sean.

But the look she had on her face when she saw I was with Andrea was one I had never seen on her face, the look of hurt and jealousy, I could have sworn she was wearing a mask instead. She has always been confident and sure of herself and part of me hates myself for destroying that part of her.

I was hoping to hurt her by bringing Andrea as my date because I was set on asking her to be my date ever since the winter came around but shit happened and I ended up spending an entire evening with Andrea's annoying voice screeching in my ears.

"You have fifteen minutes left." The invigilator said as he scratched out the fifteen minutes from the board with a whiteboard marker.

She wasn't going to make it to the exam. I just hope she can make a plan for writing her paper.

I looked around the examination hall-even though I wasn't supposed to and I saw two-thirds of the students laying on their arms fast asleep, I had finished my test paper half an hour ago and I had a good feeling about my results. Plus I had rugby practice later today.

I decided to go back to rugby again even though I always thought I would never be able to but I needed an outlet for my frustration.

Rugby has always been something I was passionate about, especially since it was my father's favourite sport. He took me to see the Blue Bulls for my first game ever and it was like a calling. I never thought I would go back to the sport and play games without him cheering me on for every single one of the games. But if I didn't want to end up with a criminal record I would have to get over that fact, I just hope I can get back into the swing of things quickly because there was a game on Saturday.

The papers were finally collected and we could leave.

I collected my phone from my locker and dialled her number.

Don't do it, Dian.

I took a deep breath and shoved my phone back into my locker then took out my sports bag. I needed to get her out of my head and out of my life. I can't allow a liar and user to rule my life, at least that is what I tried to convince myself.

I headed to the changing rooms filled with high testosterone and boys hollering about the freshest piece of meat on the block and by meat I meant girls.

I took my clothes off quickly while the boys were talking about the girl with the biggest butt. I slipped on a pair of black tights to cover up my legs and I pulled on a pair of white rugby shorts over the tights and a t-shirt as well.