Once A Lost Girl | Once Upon A Time Story | Peter Pan

03x04 - Family Ties - Present

                 We'd walked quite the distance from Pan's camp in silence and, somewhere in there, Rumple teleported us further away. The only sounds were our footsteps and the trees rustling. Pan had done exactly what he'd wanted. He sowed doubt into Baelfire's mind. The only reason it's so damaging is because of how untrustworthy Gold has been in the past. I wish I could have slapped that shit-eating grin off his face before we left, but it wasn't worth it.

                What the fuck is so wrong with me? Why can't I just erase Pan from my mind? He's a tyrant; a devil. He is by no means a good man. Why can't I let him go? Why can't I do the right thing at any given moment in time? I'm not a villain... right? I've just been unfortunate enough to be stuck with them. Never once did I actually make a move to hurt Snow, I encouraged Henry to go get Emma to break the curse so why is my life so utterly fucked?

                I held it in, gritting my teeth and clenching my fist. I was sure I'd dug into my skin, but it was better than killing any more of the foliage and potentially hurting anyone. Neal finally stopped in a clearing, turning to face Rumple.

                "What the hell was he talking about?" He asked, setting Henry down so he could rest.

                "Oh, don't mind him," Gold tried to brush it off. I took a few steps back from them, staying out of the way.

                "He said you were gonna murder Henry!" Neal shouted.

                Rumple started grasping, "He plays games. Mind games. The important thing is we got the boy and we got out." Bae looked ready to fight all over again. He softened his tone.

                "Where are we?"

                "The other side of the island. We're safe here for the time being." Rumple reasoned.

                "Are we?" Neal questioned.

                "Neal," I started, "this is exactly how Pan wins every time."

                He turned to me with his eyes narrowed, "Did I ask you?" I was taken aback. He'd never snapped at me before.

                Just then Henry stirred, groaning and shifting in his place on the ground. I was glad we got him out, but I wonder how long it will be before Pan tries to find him again. I could only hope He'd find it fun to let us catch up to Emma and the others. That might not happen.

                "Hey--hey, Henry? It's me. Hey, it's your dad," Neal leaned over and gently brushed some of the dirt off of his face.

                "No, he-he can't hear you," Gold said tentatively.

                "Then wake him up," his son demanded.

                "Pulling him out of the spell could be dangerous. He'll wake naturally in a few hours. He'll be fine." Rumple was telling the truth. He has been since this entire shit storm happened, which is new for him. I had no idea how to diffuse the situation. Frankly, I have a feeling I 'd just make it worse.

                 Baelfire stood, turning to face his father, "alright. Then you can explain to me what the hell Pan meant. This prophecy that he's talking about, why would he say that you'd kill Henry?" I gave Rumple a solemn look.

                 "Oh, I don't know, to create a wedge between us?" He avoided the truth.

                 "That's not a denial," Neal challenged. He sighed, coming to a realization, "no, this has to do with what happened when I found you. You thought I was a hallucination. You said that you had to do the right thing and save Henry! What did that really mean?"