My Jan Valentine

Beginning

Jan and I are leaving the house. We are headed to one of Jans base camps. As soon as I exit the house so many smells and sounds come flooding my way. Before I can tell this to Jan I see a group of women approaching us. It seems they've just come back from shopping. The wind is blowing and their scents are strong. I snap.

"What the hell are you doing!" The girls start to scream as I devourer their friend. Wait, but why? What am I doing? "Hey! Stop! Get a hold of yourself! Fuck!" Jan embraces me frantically trying to calm me down. I see all the girls crying around their half-dead friend. "I-I'm so sorry..." I gently say to the girls. Jan loosens his grip on me and then walks towards the girls. They look up at him with intense fear upon their faces. In second's I see Jan disappear with all three girls. When he comes back his face is grim. He slowly extends a hand out to me. Instead of taking his hand I embrace him tightly. "Jan, I'm sorry. I'm scared." Jan squeezes me just as tight at the sound of my shaky voice. He strokes my head, trying to calm me down and right now I think Jan is the only person that can calm me down. My face is so close to Jan's warm neck. I can hear Jan take a deep breath in and then exhale. Jan is also trying to calm himself down. "Listen to me, what you did... You did what you had to... Don't beat yourself up about it." Jan says to me thinking his words out carefully. I feel tears seeping out of my eyes, regret filling my lungs and suffocating me. Those girls were just like me. Normal, happy, living and now they're all probably dead because Jan doesn't leave loose ends. "Hey! What did I just say?! You did what you had to! You gotta keep you and my son alive! So be strong for us." Jan yells these powerful words that pierce my heart and bring me back to him. I am finally able to catch my breath. "Good, don't give a rats ass about no one but yourself," Jan says with a devilish smirk. I take a deep breath and nod my head. Jan takes hold of me and I feel the breeze. When I open my eyes we are at one of Jan's many base camps. I see ghouls with loaded guns surrounding the camp. We enter the camp and are greeted by a vampire turned by Jan. "Welcome back, Jan Valentine sir!" The vampire stands salute and welcomes Jan back. "That's right address me like a fucking king! All of you dirty fucking maggot heads!" All the ghouls loyally salute at Jan's words. Seeing all the ghouls being so loyal even though Jan hates every single one of them is really sad to watch. "Now all of you get the cocks out of your ears and listen closely. We gotta work harder and faster because of that dick biter, son of a pussy ass bitch, dog ass motherfucker, Alucard, Dracula, Asslucard, Whatever the fuck his name... may possibly come to attack me and my family. So it's up to you maggots to deal with him!" The sight of Jan taking command is actually really attractive, even though his words a very vulgar. "You, who are you again?" Jan asks the vampire while scratching his hip. "You gave me the name pickle dick sir." The vampire known as pickle... di... pickle says to Jan who is now almost on the floor laughing. "Your fucking pulling my dick! Did I actually?! You like that fucking name?! Pickle dick! Well okay!" Jan mocks pickle and laughs hard. Mr. Pickle keeps a straight face even though Jan is insulting him. "Okay, pickle dick. What's the body count here?" Jan asks while wiping tears from his eyes and clearing his throat. "The body count is roughly around fifty thousand sir." pickle says while glancing towards me. I meet his dull grey eyes, he looks away immediately after. "Fifty thousand. I guess that's not half bad but these ghouls better be hardcore parkour up in this bitch." Jan says while taking my hand and walking away. I look back to pickle who is looking back at me. His eyes are cold and empty, his hair blonde and messy, his skin tan. Pickle turns away and so do I. I meet Jan's gaze and he's looking at me with curiosity. "He looks sad." Is all I say to Jan. He rolls his eyes and looks away from me. 

Jan puts me to bed in the base camps main cabin made just for Jan and I. It takes me a while to fall asleep but I manage. When I'm with Jan I can fall asleep anywhere. 

I only need Jan.