Fall- A Justin Bieber Love Story

Chapter 36- Saying Goodbye

Chapter 36- Saying Goodbye

"You tell me this is for the best, so tell me why am I in tears?"~ Justin Bieber

English Literature seems to be moving extra slow today. I would usually be writing so many notes but today I just can't bring myself to do anything. Justin's words keep ringing in my head and now the sound is annoying but unforgettable. His words stung me more than I would like to accept. It was a low blow from him but what hurts even more is the fact that he hasn't apologised to me. I get that I was overreacting but I am not willing to apologise until he does. I didn't slag off his relationship.

I rub my head as if it will rid me of this banging headache. I feel someone nudge and when I turn I see Alexa looking at me worried. I shake my head at her and give her a small smiling, telling her that I am fine. She doesn't look like she believes me but goes back to listening to miss talk about Rochester's deceit to Jane.

Minutes later, the receptionist comes in carrying a long black box. I close my eyes and pray that she isn't here for me. This happens to me way too many times. My prayers are crushed when she asks if I am present in her class. As always everyone turns to look at me and miss tells her when I am. She walks over to me, her heels breaking the silence in the room. She passes me the box and I thank her before she walks away, apologising for disturbing the class.

Once she has gone the class returns back to normal and I open the box. I see Alexa looking at me suspiciously. Inside the box, sitting comfortably is a purple rose. My heart jolts as I know who it is from, without even reading the small note. Each rose represents a time where I have hurt you. This is his way of apologising. I pick up the small card and read.

'I know I can't take back what I said but I am sorry
Your Jay x'

Not knowing what to feel I slip the card back into the box and then slip into my bag. I know he has apologised but his words still hurt.

I can't help but slam my locker door in frustration. I should be at home now but instead Mr Gordon had to keep me behind because I forgot my homework. I cannot wait until high school is over. I rush down the empty hallways just so I can get home. As I turn to corner I see a boy sitting on the stairs. I am about to walk away when I realise its Kyle. The rush of being home disappears as I walk towards him. Once I reach him I see tears rolling down his face. I take a seat next to him and I can't help but think about how many times we have been in this position before.

He jumps when I wrap my arms around his shoulders but when he sees it’s me he relaxes. For once he doesn't try to hide his tears. I don't have to ask him what has happened. "He's going. He is going today. He kept me behind after class to say goodbye to me. I know he was going but I didn't think it would be this soon. I am not ready to say goodbye to him. Not yet. He can't expect me to just say goodbye and be okay with this."

I run my hand up and down his back. "I know Kyle. I know. It's hard. I can see that but at least he is letting you say goodbye. At least he isn't packing his bags and moving without telling you and letting you say goodbye. That has to count for something right?"

He shakes his head and wipes his tears. "No. It's harder this way. I would rather him just leave than make me go through all of this. I wouldn't have to watch him leave. I could just blame him for walking away rather than me letting him go."