Fall- A Justin Bieber Love Story

Chapter 42- Ready

Chapter 42- Ready

"You can find out what's possible if you never give up."~ Justin Bieber

When someone punches you in your stomach you can't help but take a few steps back. It knocks the breath out of you and you struggle to breathe. That is how I am feeling right now as the realisation falls on me. I stumble back and stare off into the darkness. I have feelings for Justin. Romantic feelings. This can't be possible! He is my best friend...

Justin reaches out to me a smile on his face. "What is wrong?"

What is wrong? How can he ask that? How can he not see what we just did was wrong? What I am feeling is wrong... I pull my hands away from his. "We can't be doing this. We're both in relationships. I shouldn't even be here. Bruce..." I feel myself choking up at the thought of Bruce. Not only have I just left him I have cheated on him. What is wrong with me?

When I look up at Justin I see his smile gone only to be replaced with a thoughtful look. Neither of us saying anything letting the wind roar with our unspoken words. I stand there in silence for minutes waiting for something to be said. Does this change things? Does he like me too? I want to kick myself for even thinking about that... I mean he's done a lot that will prove that he does like me. His dislike to Bruce, him singing to me, all our childhood memories... Maybe he does like me. Maybe this could be the start of something great. We could work things out and be happy. Just as I feel a bubble of excitement rise Justin bursts it.

"Yeah. You are right. I can't do this to Miley. She's... She's... My everything." His voice fades as his sentence finishes. His eyes are heavy with guilt and he walks away without looking at me. As he walks away I see his shoulders hung low and his footsteps fasten. He can't even bear to be around me anymore. I have ruined everything. Why did I let him kiss me?

I follow him to his car but for a second doubt if he will even want me in his car anymore. I feel stupid even questioning that. I know Justin and I know that even though he is mad he will never just abandon me in the middle of nowhere. Soon enough we reach his car and both enter. The car is colder now, and I am not just talking about the heating. Silently he pulls away and drives back home.

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My hands tremble as I wait for Bruce. I text him telling him I want to meet him. After asking me why he agreed to meet me. My heart is racing as I prepare myself to face the consequences of my betrayal.

After Justin brought us home we both went our ways. Neither of us saying anything. Like neither of us knew what to say after our kiss. He hasn't mentioned it and neither have I. I don't want to. It's not because I necessarily regret it but more the way he just shot me down. I know I did the same but he was so... I have no idea. I know I am being a hypocrite. Maybe it's because of these stupid feelings that have appeared from nowhere. Anyway I switched my phone back on and was flooded with messages from Bruce. None of them showed that he was angry more upset and that makes the guilt even worse.

I see him walking towards me and I prepare myself for a massive argument. He gives me a small smile. I can't help but notice that he looks tired. He is wearing his usual jeans and t-shirt but today has a jacket on and a scarf wrapped around his neck. "Hey."

I look away from his eyes unable to even look at him. "Hey," I mutter.

"You wanted to talk?" I don't notice any anger in his voice. When I raise my head I see that he isn't even looking at me.