She Adores Mr. Seller

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Kanina pa akong pabalik balik sa conversation namin ni Nel pero di parin siya nagrereply. Is he really not going to reply? Is he busy?

Hays.

I began scrolling through my news feed, checking comments and reacting to what people say. Buong araw kong mas-stalk si Nel kasi sunday ngayon, pero syempre inuna ko muna ang magworship kay God of course. Main priority ko yon eh.

Mabait akong bata 'no!

Marahil ay naguguluhan kayo kung bakit ako nabaliw dito sa lalaking 'to. Tbh, nakilala ko lang siya nang magkaroon ako ng boyfriend.. or should I say cross roleplayer na boyfriend.

Okay, let me explain.

On facebook, there is this roleplayer's world where you can be someone you're not. Like, pretend that you're a celebrity pwede yon. Pero dahil laganap na ang katoxican puro kalokohan nalang ang natitira sa mundong yon ngayon.

I met this guy named Ethan West. Nainlove ako sa kaniya, sagad hanggang operator. Sa rpw (roleplayer's world) kasi ang golden rule ay wag isasama ang operator sa magiging kahihinatnan ng roleplayer. Ng port ganon. Naintindihan?

So ayun, i fell inlove with Ethan West. Joker ang port niya ganon. Nung una magbestfriend lang kami, he admired me because of how I write poems and such. Poetess din kasi ako if you guys didn't know. So yun, hanggang sa naging close kami. We exchanged real accounts and talked like normal people would. That time kasi broken ako sa ex ko in rpw pero dahil sa kaniya, I got over it.

He started courting me and I had to admit I liked him narin, i mean who wouldn't diba? If the guy is sweet af and a true gentleman, who wouldn't?

But it happened so that he wasn't a he in real life and that the operator used someone else's photo to deceive me. And the owner of the photo is Nel Nicholas. Pinagtapat niya after we broke up.

Baka isipin nyo naman na tanga ako kasi nakipaghiwalay ako dahil babae ang karelasyon ko, no. It's not like that. Bisexual ako and it shouldn't matter pero kasi niloko niya ako. She deceived me and I hate being fooled of.

So I broke up with her.

And it happened so that the guy, which is Nel Nicholas really exist kaya sinearch ko siya on facebook and tried to befriend him.

Kaya ito, I'm stalking a guy I don't really know. And wala akong pake sa kung anong iisipin nyo tungkol sakin. Gusto ko lang naman maging masaya kahit panandalian lang.

It's a good thing di na ako ginagambala ni Ash. Her name's Ashley kasi, I call her Ash.

Nung malaman ko na cross rp siya, sobrang sakit kasi naka 4 months kami na in a relationship and i made such effort for the person. Sobrang sakit. I couldn't sleep straight at night sa sobrang sakit.

It took me 2 months to accept that I wasn't talking to the person in the pictures she sent me. Kasi sobrang convincing ng act niya, may patawag tawag pa pero aaminin ko naging masaya naman ako sa relasyon namin kahit niloko niya ako pero iba talaga eh. Masakit din talaga kasi umasa ako sa mga promise niya.

Okay, enough drama. I'm happy na naman.

'sjcidnciekksojs isjebdi'

Hays. Bakit kasi ang epal epal nung lalaki na yon. Ultimo pati dito sa lovelife ko naepal din.

Ilang minuto lang ay narinig ko na yung messenger tone para sa mga taong nakaread ng message. Di na ako nagabala pang tignan yung messenger ko kasi busy ako kakascroll sa timeline ni Nel.

Puro products yung timeline niya pero mas marami parin yung pictures niya. Ang cute cute niya. AHHHhhhHhhHhhHh!

"Hay nako, Nel" tanging nasabi ko bago ko ilock ang phone ko. Kasalukuyan akong nakadapa sa kama ko. Hay. Kailan kaya niya ako mapapansin?

I checked my messenger app and to my surprise....

OH MY GOD! HE SAW MY MESSAGEEEEE!!! OH EM GEEEEE!

HALA ANO NA SASABIHIN KO? ANO NA GAGAWIN KO? NABASA NIYA YUNG CHAT KO.

'typing....'

HALA TYPING NA! TYPING NAAA! ASHFJFNRODNDKEKENIXK ANO KAYANG SASABIHIN NIYA?

SANA MAG I LOVE YOU SIYA AHHHHHhhHhHhhhHhh!

Biglang tumigil yung 'typing....'

...

TAKTE ANO NA?! DI KA MAGREREPLY?! ANG TAGAL KITANG HININTAY TAPOS DI KA MAGREREPLY?!

Then biglang nag'typing....' ulit!

YAN NA NAKOPO YAN NA! JUSKOPOOOOO YAN NAAAAAA

'yes ma'am?' WHATTTTT???? WAG MO KONG MAMA'AM MA'AM DAHIL DADDY ITATAWAG KO SAYO. WAHHHHHHH

WHAAAAT?! SO KINKY SHEEEET

WHAT DO I SAY?!??!!

'Hehe. Hello po. I'm here to make friends with you po kuya' sagot ko. Hoe mai gawd!!! KINAKABAHAN AKO SA SASABIHIN NIYA BAKIT GANITO?!

Mel, he's just a normal person okay? Chill. Calm down...

POTEK ANONG CHILL CHILL?! CALM DOWN KA DYAN. TAGAL KONG HININTAY TO WOOOOOOO!

'Uh, miss. Sorry but I only entertain customers' reply niya which saddened me immediately.

'Ah, ganun po ba?' reply ko pero sineen niya nalang. Di na niya ako nireplyan.

'Kuya!' sineen niya na naman.

'Kuya crush kitaaaa! aHhHhH'

'Uy kuyaaaaa! notis mi senpaiiii!'

'UYYYYYYYY!'

'busy ka ba??? UwU'

'Oo busy ako' reply nito.

'Hays. Tagal kong hinintay na replyan mo ko kuya. Sobrang saya ko ngayon kasi nagreply ka na. Ehehe'

seen...

'Inspiration kita tbh hehe. Kaso nga lang medyo nagf-fail ako ng kaunti pero babalik ako sa top promise. Basta lagi kang nandyan, gagalingan ko palagi'

seen ulit....

'Tapos alam mo, kahit magulong magulo ang araw ko pero makita ko lang pictures mo, nasosolve yung araw ko'

seen parin...

'So thank you for existing!'

wala parin... ano ba yan Melio, failed. he wouldn't reply.

'How old are you?' tanong nito. Kinabahan ako sa tanong na yan, that can ruin my plan.

'Uhh, 16 po' reply ko. It took a while para mabasa niya yung reply ko.

Then back to 'typing....' na naman.

'16 huh? Do you know how old I am?' tanong ulit nito. I have no idea about his age. Maybe he's 19? I don't know. What do I sayyyyy?

I should be happy that we're already talking but why do i feel guilty all of a sudden. I mean, it's not a crime to talk to him. Right?

'For your info, I'm already 23. If you're here in the hopes of having me, that's not gonna happen'