How am I going to feel when i fill this journal with all my life experiences and read it over? Not sad, probably very cringey...not happy, and no chance of anger. When I realize the next day how angry or depressed I was last night I brush it off like it was nothing. Because I mean... I am nothing. There is billions of people out there and I'm one of them. I also realized last night that there is not place where I can hang myself. Because people who are stupid hang themselves from the ceiling fan and it doesn't support their weight. So in the end it's an attempted suicide. There's a lot of ways to die and I've always wanted to do it by confronting my greatest fear which is... heights. Jumping off a building is what I'm referring to.
Now you may wonder, why do you have these suicidal thoughts? Well... I've never been happy with myself. People don't show they care about me so I feel ignored. And I've literally witnessed getting ignored, like straight up. No joke. I can't do anything about it though. I'm just an idiotic retard that never does anything right. Ain't that true though? I'd do anything for anyone but still not get anything in thanked for it.
Wait, let me take that back. I shouldn't be pointing fingers at people (my family), and I should never! disrespect anyone. But go ahead do whatever you feel like towards me. This entry is going to end right here. Hopefully tomorrow won't be that aggressive.
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An Introduction
Cerita Pendek"today is Sunday and I have decided to start journaling painful events that happen..." These are the journal entries to Kelsey, a girl who worries to much about others even though they don't give a shit about her. 'Just drink it down with vodka is h...
