Written; In the Life of Myla Renee

Chapter 23; ♥

Chapter 23;

[A/N: Song of the chapter is Young Forever - Nicki Minaj. Start it now.]

**It's been 3 days since I told Jawan my news. He's been blowing up my phone, since. Everyone has. Cameron, Sienna, Claire, Leona, everyone. Well, except Shontelle & Diggy who left for Greece already. They wanted to stay a while but, I made them go. They just got married. I want them to be happy, Not caught up in my drama. I took all my stuff & headed to the airport. I gave my bags, then went downstairs to get checked & board the plane. I was all set until I heard someone call my name. I turned around to see all my family & friends standing there. Myla ran to me & I picked her up & spun her. She hugged me tight.

Myla: I love you, Mommy. 

Me: Oh my gosh. Myla, I love you too. You're my everything, alright? Be a big girl for me. Please. 

Myla: Can I go with you? 

Me: No Myla. You're Jawan's by law. Plus, I can't do that to him. 

Myla: Why are you leaving me? 

Me: I'm only leaving for a while. I'll be back to visit you frequently. You can call me, text me, even FaceTime me, alright? 

Myla: Okay.

**I put her down & wiped her face. She wiped mine. I gave her a hug, then hugged everyone else. Claire, Craig, Leona, Trey, Kylie, Ray, Romeo, Cameron, Sienna & my mom. Jawan pulled me away from the rest of them.

Jawan: So, you're really gonna go, huh?

**I nodded.

Jawan: There's nothing I could say... Nothing I could do...?

**I shook my head.

Jawan: Can you at least talk to me? I wanna hear your voice. 

Me: I-... I don't kn-know what to sa-y. 

Jawan: Say that you still have feelings for me. 

Me: I-I... I ca-n't. I can't say that. 

Jawan: Why not?

**Because if I let myself realize that I still have feelings for him, imma end up staying. I don't want to stay here & watch him & someone else's child grow up! That's too much for me to take.

Jawan: You do, Miranda! You & I both know you do!

**I looked down on to the floor.

Jawan: Look at me!

**He turned my head to face him & he started looking into my eyes, so I shut them. I'm about to cry. Next thing I knew, I felt lips on mine. I tried not to kiss him back, but I couldn't help it. My hands automatically wrapped around his neck & his hands slid around my waist. I'm in love with this man. I really am... He pulled away & stared at me.

Intercom: Last call, Passengers on 11:55 plane headed to new york. Please start boarding now.

**I looked up at Jawan, then gave him a hug.

Me: I have to go. 

Jawan: No. You don't. 

Me: I do. Jawan, I do. I can't do this any longer. 

Jawan: But, I- 

Me: I'm sorry.

**I backed away & got in line. I waved to the family & started crying. I cried through it all. I cried in the line, I cried while they were checking me in. I even cried when I got on the plane. But, I sat there until the plane took off into the air. Then I got a text from Jawan.

Love<3 ; 
It isn't over.

**I don't know what he meant by that, but It's too late. I'm in the air. I've left. Were done. It's over. 

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