Leave me alone

Chapter 22

(Michelle= Jordan's mom)

Author: before I go with this chapter I want you guys to comment on what you think about this chapter. This chapter is really sad and Jordan does not deserve it. If its sad please comment cause it nearly made me cry. I made it myself.

Michael's POV

Eventually, she fell asleep in my arms. I needed to find out why her father said she was a mistake. I layed her down and slid from underneath her. I pulled the covers over her, kissed her cheek and walked out. I saw Michelle sitting on the couch not making a sound. I cleared my throat to draw attention. She looked at me.

"Do you mind if I join you?" I asked in the nicest way. She nodded.

"Michael....I don't know what to do..she's already been through so much," Michelle explained.

"Its okay, all of is not your fault. You tried your best to care protect her and I respect that. But there is one thing I need to know.....what did he mean by she was a mistake?" I asked. She cried harder.

"Michael its too bad to tell you. I kept this secret from her for nineteen years. She will never forgive me!!" Michelle wailed.

"What secret? Why did you keep it from her?" I really needed the answer.

"I...I just couldn't have my baby grow up and know that she wasn't planned...," she went on.

"Wait what do you mean by wasn't planned? Michelle can you please explain from the very top? I need to hear the whole story cause that girl upstairs is mine and you have no idea how much I love her," I pleaded.

She took a deep breath.

"Okay here goes nothin.....I was at home with Josh and Geneva when George(Jordan's dad) came home drunk. He started to go on and on about his desire for sex but I never gave in. You see there are sometimes when he would abuse me and hurt me both phisically and emotionally. I never wanted to have sex that night so I decided to leave and stay with a friend. He pulled me back and (*sobs*) threw me into a room. He then raped me without warning. He would normally rape me protection but this time he didn't care. A few weeks later I discovered I was pregnant with Jordan. He wanted me to kill the baby or abort it but I said no. He beat me everynight and I just couldn't take it anymore so one night I moved out and stayed at a friends until I could afford my own house. I did eventually then Jordan was born. When he discovered I moved he insisted I told Jordan that she was a mistake. So if he had never raped me, Jordan wouldn't be born," Michelle said as I looked at her wide eyed.

So thats what it meant!! Thats just sad, so if he had never raped her Jordan wouldn't be here.

"But I could've been that he wanted another child right?" I asked.

"No Michael. He said if I ever had another child  he would kill me but its his fault. I am so glad I have Jordan. I only told her that her father was a bad man cause it would break my heart to tell her the truth. Every night she would watch movies with fighting and once told me that she would protect me and do that to daddy if he ever hurt any of us. She was so brave and fearless but gave it up cause she needed something different," Michelle added.

I was so angry. Jordan deserves to be born the right way and planned. Not be an accident or a mistake. How should I break it to her.......

To be continued..........