"I miss him, I know that I was immature back then but he really did keep the darkness at bay. Not that you don't, but other than my family and frends he was the only one who didn't treat me like a piece of shit, And it just kind of hurts when people just walk out of my life because that was most of my childhood. Constantly in worry that one day my mother would leave and never come back and she did. I hate being abandoned because it makes me feel like I'm not worth keeping around. I mean whats the point in keeping someone around if she scares everyone she ever loved away? I've been left behind more than most and I'm tired of it. I'm tired of losing everyone. That's why I don't make new friends or go out and date somebody, I'm afraid of losing them and I don't feel I'm good enough and nothing will change that view because it's the way I was raised. I hope I get a retry at life when my time is up because I want to be able to do more than I could ever do in this one."
-L
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PoetryThoughts, feelings and moments of my past, present and future written down. I can't say much but I like to think that they're goodish. You and I, we're an ocean of love and hatred. A land of chaos and peace, a battle that we're losing with love and...
