A series of options Left Behind In Words And Letters

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Loving You

"Loving you was like a breath of fresh air.
Loving you was finding beauty in everything that was dying.

Loving you was like being dying and being reborn.
Loving you was beautiful.

At least that's what I saw.
Looking back I see all the hurt you gave me.

Loving you was like breaking a mirror and cutting my throat.
Loving you was like jumping off a cliff without knowing what was wait in for me at the bottom.

Loving you was as dangerous as it gets.

But that's what I did because the thought of someone else petrified me.

I thought you were my compass and my map but instead you were an elaborate cave system hiding underneath a jungle.

Loving you was ruining everything I spent 15 years working for.

Yet almost 2 years later and I still can't help feeling this way.
But I don't think it's you I miss. I think it's the way we talked, we laughed and joked.

We were a match made in hell. I know the hurt you caused and all the effort you didn't put in but I miss the way I loved you.

Ever since you led a stampede overy my heart I haven't been able to love anyone the way I loved you, not even myself.

You taught me that only some broken souls deserve to be saved. But you made me believe that mine wasn't worth you.

Loving you was Life and Death wrapped in one."

-L