"I'm tired of making excuses for people who don't deserve it.
I've spent my life doing that, my mother, strangers, fake friends and even some of my real close family.
I only have so many excuses and I'm tired of waisting them on people who wouldn't do the same.
I've gotten to the point of insecurity that I look in the mirror every morning and think of everything disgusting about myself.
I have to draw a fucking smiley on my left wrist every day, just to remind myself that somebody cares even if it's not me.
That smiley is a reminder that even a fake smile isn't permanent, every day I waste excuses but I'm done.
I'm tired of constantly being unstable, I want to be stable long enough to not have to draw fake Smiley's.
I'm not using anymore excuses on people who don't deserve it, I'm unstable and it isn't fair.
I can't be unstable when I'm trying to be a rock for others, otherwise I'll lose everything and everyone I've ever had."
-L
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A series of options Left Behind In Words And Letters
PoetryThoughts, feelings and moments of my past, present and future written down. I can't say much but I like to think that they're goodish. You and I, we're an ocean of love and hatred. A land of chaos and peace, a battle that we're losing with love and...
