Chimerical

Kiss and Tell

Caleb cocked an eyebrow at her. "You're taking Iseki with you are you not?" He asked. "Besides you have done much to warrant their love. You released Anoch from himself and you're probably the only person who has ever treated Iseki like a person. Not just some animal with no value." He looked her in the eyes seriously. "I don't say nice things you know this so take it for what it's worth. Every bit of love you have from these people is earned not given."

Reyna couldnt help but keep crying. "Ive told iseki that when we go to my world im going to go back to thomas. Im just taking him there as a friend. Why would nobody say anything to me?" She said softly through her tears. She gave up then and sat down on the ground, not wanting to go back to the stupid camp. Why did everything have to be so complicated and hard? "Its not fucking fair. I didnt ask for any of this. I would have been perfectly fine going home and fogetting all about you fucking people. And then you had to be likeable and these threads showed up. And I dont think its fair. I dont know whether the threads make you feel more than you normally would. But ever since they showed up im questioning everything." She wiped her cheeks with her hands.

Caleb shook his head. "Okay let's just take a minute to break it down. Have you not doubted your man back home since you found out about your command abilities? And yeah I can see how that would upset your plans to go home but it's not like you can't transport portal flowers with you when you go I mean they only wilt when you use them and even that's only if you pick them. So you can come back. That's to say half these people don't want to go with you. And you should feel good knowing there are people who will care about you for the rest of their lives. You may not have romantic feelings towards them but they can be your family." He said seriously. "No world is black and white. Life is hard. That's what makes it worth living. So just relax will you. Besides you may grow to hate everyone in this world anyway. Fate does that to people."

Reyna looked up at him from where she sat crying on the ground. "Thats not what im saying caleb." She said with a shaky breath as she wiped her face with her hands again. "I dont think that I'm supposed to be with thomas anymore. I think he was just a means to getting me to the flower. Before him nobody would have ever bought me flowers. I wouldnt have smelled it or trusted it. But now im here. And i have these threads. And I cant help but feel like its because i have a choice. As to where my life is going to go from this point out. And each thread is a completely different path. And i dont know what im supposed to do. Each one would be a vastly different life with a vastly different man. But how do I know what those futures look like? What if i make the wrong choice and miss out on something really incredible? Or what if im just fucking crazy and i should just go back to thomas to live a life i know exactly what it will look like?" She kept her wet blue eyes on his face and they seemed brighter somehow through thr tears. She was completely lost and was lookinh at him with desperate hopefulness that he would have an answer for her.

Caleb frowned at her. "You have to relax and let things develop naturally." He said seriously. "You can't just rush love like that. And after a while it should become clear. Who exactly makes you happy and whole. Who gives a damn what the future looks like if you're happy. Don't be like me. Try to have fun and don't over think this." (One thing's for sure. This Thomas guy was definitely just a way to get you here to your destiny. Whatever that may be.) He thought as he knelt down to look at her in the face. "Just take a deep breath and let go of worrying about what each choice would mean for your future."

Reyna inhaled deeply and exhaled when he told her to take a deep breath. She continued to look at him with a lost sadness as tears continued down her cheeks. "I cant help but overthink it. This is my whole life were talking about. A marriage maybe even kids. How can i have fun with it when i fuck everything up? Im just going to fuck this up too. The whore queen remember? Thats all im good for. And whoever i dont choose is going to get hurt. And the last thing i want is to hurt any of you." She reasoned through still shaky breaths. She felt completely lost and hopeless. And most of all undeserving of a choice that would affect so many peoples lives.