Emotional Torture.

Seesaw.

The start is always fun, feeling like you own the world, like the whole universe is on your side but everything has its ups and downs.

Our game started slow, little arguments, small fights, our draining irregular routine was eating both of us up. Waiting to find a middle ground was emotionally exhausting. We were stuck in that gray area between love and aversion, neither of us wanting to be the 'bad guy'.

Our seesaw started creaking, it was getting tired of going up and down, tired of our pride and constant parrel lines. Both of us were getting sick of feeling like this 'relationship' was a chore, so sick of continuing to act like we're trying to fix when we both know we've lost hope.

One of us has to get off the seesaw, we must stop this tiring game, it has dragged on for too long, but why? Why did we let it suck us up like this? If neither of us feels like we should then this was hopeless from the start.

I've come down from my euphoria, I've opened my eyes to what it's really like...it's dangerous here.

and you've already left.

but then again, were you ever there?

I'm now getting off of our seesaw.

Sometimes the joy of the ups isn't enough to fix the damage of the downs.

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idk if anyone noticed but the last three chapters were based on the trivia triology on bts' album 'Love Yourself: Answer' #stanbts