It's nights like these when the sky has no stars and my house feels emptier than usual that take me to the dark crisis I'm always facing where the only emotion present is loneliness and lack of love.
My heart can't go on without the constant need of feeling reassured that I'm loved and cared for because often my insecurities make their way into the strings between my heart and mind and play with them as they like.
When the clouds are covering the moon like my hair covers my face when I start crying is when I feel the most shattered inside. It's exactly when I feel the remains of my heart cutting my insides making me bleed internally, letting out the saddest parts in me.
And though I know that I have people who care about me and would go to the ends of the world to make me happy all I can focus on are all the times I've made mistakes that led me to that moment of fear of being cast out and forgotten.
All those times I've been the bad person in someone's story haunt me before I sleep, causing me to stay wide awake.
I'm sorry my emotions are such a burden to handle, it's just how dark nights make me feel.
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Emotional Torture.
PoesieCollection of poems and pieces written about daily struggles and tackling big world problems from the eyes of a teenager. Warning: Some chapters might be triggering. Triggers include: Suicide Eating disorder Self harm
