Loving The Goddess

Chapter 53.

"You are in trouble." Arlo whispers.

"And you have to ask her to drive your bike cause your a little tipsy." Evelyn say as she pats my back and I gulp.

"Where have you been?" She says as she comes up to me then stops. "You were drinking Alexandria." I bow my head. She take a deep breath and holds her hand out. "Give me the keys." I give it to her and she walks away. "Come on baby boy ill be driving you home." She says to sage and he puts on the helmet on and gets in front of her as she starts the bike. I go to edwards car and get in the car with Edward, Carlise, Esme and Alice. I take a feel brwath knoing this is going to be a long ride.

"Alex why are you drinking?" Edward ask first and I look to the window as I throw my hood up trying to ignore him and he takes a deep breath and we start driving. A hand slides on me thigh and squeezes making me look and see alice looking at me worried, I take a deep breath as I put my arm around her and pull her into me and the ride stay silent as we drive. Diving in the driveway I took a deep breath knowing rose is about to let me have it, I unwrap from alice and get out at walk and see rose glare at me then walked upstairs I follow behind her as she walks to our room. Once I shut the door she looks at me.

"Where is it?" She says coldly and I flinch but go to my spot and grab the bottle as I hand to her and hang my head down. "Why are you drinking this much Alexandria what is wrong?" She says as she put her finger under my chin making me look at her as she takes my glasses off. "Alex talk to me." Her voice softens and I look into her eyes as I take a deep breath.

"I keep throwing up the animal blood, I dont wanna hurt anyone so ive been drinking to soothe the burn." I whisper out and she frows and looks at me worried.

"Alex how long has it truly been since you ate and kept it down?" I look away.

"Since the last time I had a blood bag." She grabs my chin making me look at her.

"I dont care if you have to drink blood bags you need to eat, you are drinking to replace eating, this is not okay." She says as she looks me in the eyes. 'We told you to just talk to her but no you must eat animal.' I roll my eyes at him as I nod to her. "You need to eat now lets go." She says as she drags me out the room to Carlisle. "Can we talk in your office?" She ask him and he nods as he lead us there.

"Whats going on?" He ask as he looks at rose.

"She need to eat she hasnt been able to keep animal blood down can we try blood bags for her too?" She ask and carlisle nod but pauses.

"Can I see what's happening when you drink animal blood before I just wanna know if there is a reason." He says and i shrug as I take a deep breath getting ready for what's about to happen. He leaves for a moment then comes back with 2 differen cups, he this one is deer blood. I nod as I take the cup and smell it, the smell of blood made my mouth water but this didn't it made me cringe a little I close my eye as I bring the cup to my mouth and start drinking the thick liquid. Once done I place the cup down as I feel my stomach growl, the I start gagging I go to the trash but carlisle stops and hands me a bucket and I let it all go as I start throwing up. I push the bucket on the counter top as i drop my head as I breath heavy.

"Carlisle thats black." I hear rose say and you can her the worry in her voice I slowly look up as I see the stick in carlisle hand and it has black blood on it.

"Alex drink this your really weak, im going to test this." Carlisle says as he hands me the other cup i slowly grab it as I start drinking. I set the cup down as I finish and just hang my head as I hold on to the counter top for support as rose gently rubs my back. Samael what is going on? I whisper in our link as I just breath. 'I dont know but if i were to guess its you breaking the feeding bond Jaxon had on us.' He says and I can tell hes worried for me. 'Alex its okay we have been through worse just remember keep your head straight amd keep pushing.' I smile softly as I slowly push my self you feeling some strength come back but I was still not feeling well.

"I dont think its staying down either." I mumble as I feel my stomach turn and the gaging came, Carlisle comes quickly to my side with a new bucket and i throw up again in it. After a bit I finish and lean on the counter as i just feel the burn return as my body feels better but the hunger was horrible. "What makes blood or what every that is turn black?" I ask carlisle ask he looks at it.

"I would say poisons, but I already ran that test and its negative." He takes a deep breath as he looks at me. "You look better but your not going to be in till you can hold blood down have you tried human food." I scrunch my face up as I shake my head.

"Here and there but its a couple bites and im done. I am craving blood just once I drink it it comes back up." I say as I look to him and he thinks.

"I am going to keep looking over this and for you go relax and we are going to have to keep a eye on you." I nod as I turn to rose and she holds my arm lightly as she walks me out the office to the living room. Once we get in there i see everyone look at me worried after hearing everything i just walk to the couch as i sit and bring rose in me lap as I just relax into the couch. After a bit Alice and Jaxon had come and layed against me I took deep breathes as i fully relaxed into them as rose softly purs soothing me as I close my eyes and it feels like a spell of sleep overcomes me as I drift to sleep.

"Handsome come on you gotta get up you are burning up." I hear rose and I groan as I slowly wake up and see us in our room and I look down and see my clothes sticking to me as if i just got out the shower. I sit up as I take off my shirt and bra then I slip off my shorts and boxers as I lay back and just lay to the cool sheets.after a bit i feel roses cool body slip next to me and I smile as I lay more in to her and put my hand on her baby bump as I just lay against her cooling myself off.

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