Loving The Goddess

Chapter 10.

I sat there for an hour after the sun was rising. I have to say I feel bad that I left my mate like that but fuck did emse put that fear that only a mother can send through you. I shivered thinking of the thought as I slowly walk back to their house. Once i got in the house I went to go up to rose's room but the sound of clearing a throat made me stop in my tracks and slowly turn to see a very mad rose and a snickering Jasper Alice and Emmett. As Edward just looked amused with the situation. I bowed my head as I looked at her. I knew i was going to hear it from her.
"Alexandria Samuel Lucifer you shoved me. What if I got hurt!? And then you say what you said before you do it then leave me to get yelled at alone for your roughness well our but still! Now for that you get no sex for 3 week." She finishes with a smile of justice as my eyes widen and my jaw drops as i processes what she said. Emmett starts busting out laughing then he said 'I will take care of her for the 3 weeks and show her what a real man feels like.' I growled feeling Akela come to the surfuce which is starnge hes usally the calm one about his anger. 'Whoa boy its just sex and he joking she would never do that...' Really never took you to be the one saying that. He rolls hes eyes to my comment. I started to feel like my skin was heating up but not a normal heat it was like I was on fire, which only ment it was going to be a very painful transfer and this ment Akela had no control of this. I felt my bones pop and i know everyone was hearing my pops cause they all had worried faces, I could see jasper could feel what I was feeling I tired to block most the pain he feels. I dug my nails into the palms of my hands as i hold back the screams as my spin starts cracking and forming the pain was so bad i dropped to my knes. I felt cold hand feeling all over me her cold hands soothed my skin. I was breathing heavy as I tried to hold all my screams I hate this form of transformation. I couldn't hold them back as i let my scream out and I grip the floor I could feel the bones moving into place its been 5 minutes i can hear them talking i just dont know what about that in till i feel someone pick me up and take me somewhere but I passed out not wanting to feel this turn. When i came to I was in wolf form and in a room. When I got up i tried to walk forward and that when I felt the chains. Around my ankle's and my stomach area I let out a vicious growl as i started getting really irritated. Im stronger and I refuse to be in chains. I am stronger and I can pull through this i can do it. I kept chanting over and over. I started full strength yanking at the chains but they wouldnt bust. It took me atleast an hour of trying to yank them out the wall and a painful transform in to human form. To pull on the chains with my hands but was no use. After the transformation and the power to use on trying to break free i just crashed to the floor breathing heavy as I took my mind away from here. I went in to a tranze I dont know how long I was there. I just came back to rose coming to me and Carlisle checking me out as I felt the chains disappear. I could see them talking but i was to exahusted to listen i just shut my eyes and slept.

'Your the one that should be dead you mutt. you should be in that grave. You should be the one thats rotting in limbo. But yet she is so now i will just make you wish you where the one dead. Your disrespectful piece of shit!' He screams as he heats up a metal pole. When it was growing red he slowly dragged it down my spine. It didnt hurt the burning didnt it felt like i was ment to be in fire. "Your dont even wince. Im not here to go easy on you i guess we will just chain you from the ceiling as i bleed you dry." All i can do is stiffien as he started putting the chains around my shoulders and my throat. Once those are secure he unclips the bars holding me to the table. Thats when I'm off the table and hanging. I take shallow breaths as i watch him get the knife and then grabbing the needle with 3 different venoms so i stayed weak. Once he wekeaned me that when he started slicing and fuck did everyone burn worse and worse and he counted everyone he did just so he could laugh at my weakness when I scream but after evey cut he would list a reason I was useless. This went on for 2 hours.
675 cuts later and I finnally let a whimper out but I refuse to scream i was strong enough i was not going to give him the screams of pain that hes waiting for. He laughed as he kept going 'your just going to turn into a monster like me but worse. Just remember i will laugh when you self loathing yourself cause of me"
923 cuts I have tears in my eyes as I wish I would just go unconscious I could feel the boold loss and everything he says sticks cause its true "Alexandria your name was ment for something beautiful my mate always said it would bring good the only good you bring is pain. You like the pain this will be all you know, you will grow and addiction to cause pain to yourself and others".
1253 I was growing in pain and i started to make it worse cause i spit blood on him after this comment "you mate will hate you. Weill reject you. Your not ment for love and Your a freak of nature." That earned a stab and my jaw broken.
After 2473 cuts is when I let out a scream and left me hanging. When he finnally left and left me alone I cried and I cried hard. An hour later i was calm and just staring at the ground. Tomorrow is my 324th birthday and i know he has a great plan to show me how much it should of been me not her. I cant even blame him i took his mate. I wouldnt even want the thing that killed my mate. I hear the door unlock i thought it was thoes days that I get it twice in one day but instead Lauren walked in with a cloth and the chains to hook me to the floor. I can see Lauren cringing everytime i wince to the alcohol on my cuts the worst is when she said 'im sorry your going to drop please forgive me alpha' I never understand why my dark angel whould call me her alpha im a useless wolf im a usless demon im a useless person. then I would drop to the ground like a sack of potatoes. I take breaths as she puts my cahins on she would then dress me then leave after saying sorry for the 77th time. Then I would fade.