Loving The Goddess

Chapter 11.

Its been 2 days and its Monday which means humans and a craby demon. I huff as i start getting dressed. Last night I choose to sleep in the guest room cause rose was being a tease. She wanted to sleep in all lace that was almost fully see through and I was okay till she took it all off to sleep naked. I got as hard as a rock and had to get up a take a cold shower then mumbled 'ill be in the guest room.' Now im here irritated and getting ready for school. I wore ripped jeans and a shirt that said 'moody leave me alone i bite.' Walking down stairs and i walked past everyone and to the cars I just wanted this day over. I even made sure I was up early to hunt. I rode with jasper alice and lukas. Once at school went to leave them and just do my thing but then i remembered the smell and went straight to rose dragging her with me.
The school day went fast i ignored everyone when lunch came i just went and sat in the woods. By the end of the day I told everyone that im walking home Lukas insisted on coming with me. Once out of veiw i shifted and started just walking in the woods. Honestly all day today all I could think about was lifting that dress rose wore and fucking her. God did she look hot with that dress. Just thinking of it made me so much worse I shook my head as I speed to the house i honestly could not take this and its been 2 fucking days. At the house I when straight to the guest room locking it and going straight to the shower. I took a freezing shower. After i was done I just layed on the bed. I heard esme yell food but I wasnt hungry i havent been hungry since yesterday. So I just stayed in the bed someone did end up knocking but i ignored it. Tomorrow was suppose to be sunny so we are going 'camping' so I just layed in the bed people came to talk but I just ignored then I just want to be alone. That or with rose but if i was to be by her I would try to get in her pants I miss her not just in sex I miss her but im annoyed with my frustrations. I huffed as i just faced my head into the pillow.
Its now been 2 weeks one more to go but I dont even feel like moving and its been sunny for a week but then Carlisle said no school till i eat through the door and well I haven't ate in 2 weeks. I feel so paralized. 'Alex you need to get up now!' Akela growled out for the 5th time and it kept getting louder. Another half hour goes by and Samael fights me for control I was strong enough to fight Akela but Samael was way stronger i lost not having the strenghth. He growled lowly out in victory. I could feel his teeth out and my eyes change to his. Plus him being hungry made this a little nervous cause bella is in the house. Instead of opening the door he just ripped it off. I knew he was losing control to the hunger. But roses smell called to us being away this long made her sent even more intoxicating. I ran straight to her catching everyone in the house by surprise as I grabbed rose and buried my head in her neck for a few seconds then stared at her. I seen worry cross everyones face as they seen my demon in control.
"Alex, are you hungry?" Esme asked I nodded slowly as i looked towards bella hearing her heart pound in her chest cause she was scared. I loved that sound it made me always want to play with my food just to hear how fast I could get their hearts going. I shook my head and turning back to rose. I seen worry running though her eyes I could also feel she was uneasy with my state I turn to look at Esme and slowly nod "Okay well lets get you something to eat. The boys will be back in a second just hold on okay?" I nodded 'Samael your doing great.' 'I just have to keep taking shallow breathes we have this.' I believe we have it. I just kept staring at rose breathing slowly. Really not even 2 minutes later we heard the boys coming. Rose slowly guided me outside once I seen the deer fighting i ran straight to it draining it in a swift motion.
I didnt know i was so hungry till i tore into my 5th animal. But I was a little worried cause Bella's blood was calling to me strongly. I look to rose and seen nothing but trust in her eyes so I look to alice and she nodded softly. I stood up and full speed so no one could stop me I ran straight at Bella. I stopped with my face inches away from her neck. Her heart was pounding harder and faster then ive ever heard. Everyone around me went stiff besides Alice. I took a deep breath of her. I struggled to stepped back then locked eyes with her there was nothing but fear. I could feel my throat burning my inner beast wanted me to rip her apart. I stepped back again as I shook my head. As I take another deep breathe. My body subconsciously let a growl out I was fighting an inner battle i never knew I wanted to fight. I shook my head again as I stepped back. I look to Carlisle and see him smiling widely same with everyone else. I walked back to rose just taking her sent in.
"You did good baby." She whispered. "Lets go for a walk." She finished as she walked me out the house. Once out the house and I had a few deep breaths of the fresh air i spread my wings and took of to rose quickly not even warning her. I took use to this over that looked over the forest. I sat down at the ledge as i feel her walk next to me. I laced our hands as I just looked over the forest. We spent a good 3 hours talking up there. Then we walked home hand it hand. She bummped into my shoulder as she smiled widely "ive missed you. Im glad Samael took control and brought you out that room." I smiled
"I am too i was going pretty crazy in there and all I could think about was you in that dress." She laughed and i smiled wider hearing her laugh.
We just got to the house and you could hear Emmett yelling at tyler for beating him again.
"Fuck you you cheated! I want a rematch!" Emeet yelled.
"Dude we could do this in real life and I would still kick your ass you just suck donkey dick." Tyler laughed.
"Boys if you dont watch your launguge im breaking the thing and you all can help me cook." Esme yelled at them I smiled knowing I was going to get scrolled as I walked in.
"Sup bitched we are back and Emeet im here to kick your ass" I smirked as I said it. Then rose smacked the back of my head.
"Alex you just heard me yell at them now get in here. Thanks for the offer to help cook." Esme smiled motherly as she said it i huffed as I walk in the kitchen. Rose came and sat on one of the stools on the islander.
"Your helping?" I asked rose just laughed.
"Nope just watching this should be intresting." She smirked as Esme chuckled and i just rolled my eyes.
"So what we cooking ma." I seen Esme's eyes sparkle to me calling her ma.
"We are doing steak with a few sides so nothing complicated." I nod
"Where do you need me?" I question looking at everything like its foreign Rose starts laughing.
"You can start by cu-" she looks at me then at the knife she was about to hand me. "Hmm you can just stir all the stuff on the stove right now." I nod as i turn to the stove.
After and hour of Esme yelling at me cause I would mumble cuss words as i tried my best not to spill anything then ended up pretty much dumping it all over me. She finally told me to just go clean up and get out the kitchen Rose was dying over everything. I went in her room and just stripped all my clothes off. I heard the door open causing me to stiffen knowing someone was in here seeing my scars along with me being almost fully naked. I tried to sniff who it was but no smell was coming off them. I peaked over my shoulder and Lauren was standing with the door shut.
"What do you want" i said out softly. I could feel her closer to me but was not saying anything. Then her finger danced along my shoulders.
"Alex you seem tense and frustrated." She whispered out. I knew what she was doing i growled lowly.
"You have a mate and so do i. Now please step away and leave."
"Alex that means nothing to use demons our wolf side yes but you are weak with her. Let me bring strenghth to you."
"Lauren!" I deeply growled. "I said no what we did was for fun now we have mates go have fun with him."
"If I sleep with him I become weak, im scared to do that just help me Alex like old times come on." She whispered out as her hand started traveling further down my back. I growly loudly as i turned towards her and grabbed her by the throat.
"I. Said. No." I say out as I throw her across the room but before she could hit the wall I had her and slammed her against the floor cracking the floor boards. "You ever talk about it or even look at me in a sexual way I will hurt you so badly to get it threw you head. This is an order." I growl out I seen her nod as her eyes show she see where i am coming from. "Go bother Emmett your mate and stop acting like im your solution cause i havent been doing it with my mate. We may be demons but i want my mate I love her. You should do the same." I opened the door and seen everyone standing there i pushed past them and went to the guest room slamming the door. I started to pace around the room mostly cause i was just irritated she would try something like that. 'We need to take a shower i feel. Disgusting..' 'I would agree here but i want to rip her head off for even trying to do this.' Can you guys just shut up! I growl in frustration. 'Ale-' i cute off all connections i was feeling annoyed and why did this happen? Was running through my mind I just paced in the room for at least 20 minutes till i heard Esme tells us all dinner is done. I took a deep breathe as I walk down stairs. I seen my plate at the table as soon as I walked to ther I seen everyone expect me to sit down but i just grabbed my plate as I glared at Lauren then walked out to the back porch. I took a breathe of fresh air as I sat down and started eating.