Loving The Goddess

Chapter 26.

I could see Evelyn and Rishima whispering together and laughing i knew this wasn't going to be good cause as soon as Evelyn got up she smirked as she walk over to where rose was sitting. It all happen to quick to register as she sits on roses lap as the music started playing softly. She started grinding and dancing on rose then went to her ear and whispered something low enough I couldn't hear. When roses hand gripped her sides is when Katherine and I both growled lowly but neither of us made an attempt to move. The more I watched roses eyes turn black the more pissed i got but I couldn't move its like I was stuck watching, but that all changed when the smell of arousal hit the air that's when Evelyn stood up as I lunged at them and shifted but Katherine got in the way and we both just started going after each other. You could hear Evelyn, Rose and Rishima screaming at us to stop but we didn't care we were at each other. Katherine did have the upper hand she kept blocking all my bites then got on top of me. Screaming started happening as i could feel everyone come in were we are.
"Stop!"
"Fuck someone get them apart!"
"Their going to hurt each other, what the fuck happened!"
"We have to get them apart!"
"Someone go get Lauren."
"Hurry!"
Was all i heard as I kept feeling her teeth go in me I was getting more and more pissed. 'Alex she is part of your pack!' Akela kept yelling at me every time i went to bite so i would hesitate and then end with a claw or teeth in me. I growled loudly as I finally bite her side but she quickly got the back of my neck and sunk her teeth in. I could feel someone tying to get in-between us and she just clawed at me, causing me to just clamped my jaw shut but before I could shake my head I felt myself get pushed from her and then getting picked up away from her. All I seen was a pool of blood where we were. I was breathing heavy as I tried to get out of the arms and kill her. I didn't care about what akela was saying I wanted blood. Rose stepped in front of my view. I could see everyone face grow with shock when I showed my teeth at her "go ride her dick and get out of my way before I hurt you" I growled out lowly. I know everyone didn't know about Evelyn but I was beyond agitated and at this point it wasn't about anything but that I wanted to hurt something. I made everyone step back when they seen I didn't even care my mate was there I was just trying to attack I seen Lauren drop Katherine as she just breathes as Evelyn is at her side.
"Get her outside now! And get her somewhere hidden" who ever was holding me forcefully whipped me outside. "Let her go."
"What!" I heard behind me i was just seeing red that I didn't care who was talking but it sounded like jasper.
"Let her go. She would have to get through us to get to her target she is in blind rage. This is part of her demon side this is the side where she would kill her own mate to get to what she wants. Just be prepared." And with that I feel the arms let me go. I snarl as I hit the ground and quickly sniff the air for my kill i could smell her but it was faint i looked at all the people in front of me when I stepped forward and seen most tense. I growled and showed teeth one more time before I slowly tuned and went to the woods and then just took off I wanted blood. 'Samael do something!' 'Im trying but she has all the power right now' 'she could kill someone!' 'Akela! I know we have to fight together.' With that I felt them both trying but I was to pissed and in to much control I growl as i just ran.
I had to be running for at least 30 minutes in till i got hit by the sent of blood. I slowly walked toward the smell and what i seen made my demon instincts pur. There was this man that looks like he fell and was bleeding pretty bad. I licked my lips as I slowly walked towards him. 'Alexandria you need to snap out of it now!' 'Alex please don't do this.' 'Alex think of our mate and our kids!' I could hear their pleads but i was to lost in my anger and this delicious smell that I didn't even try to stop my instincts from kicking in I walked out of the cover of the woods the man seen me and went pale as he tried to scoot away i just slowly approach him as i lick my lips. I heard someone scream my name along with a no, along with the guy as he opens his mouth to cry out for help. But I just lunged at his throat and clamp down. He didn't even fight like an animals did they kicked and wiggled to get free. I felt his finger tighten in my fur trying to push me away but that didn't last long before he took his last breath and his fingers slowly let go after his heart started slowing down to almost a stop i quickly shifted and bite his neck again and started drinking and ripping apart his neck. The power that surged through me felt unreal this high was better then the one I get when rose feeds off me, I moaned. To the taste. When i finished I took deep breathes as I look at his lifeless body.
"Alex.." I heard someone whisper behind me i whip around and come face to face with Arlo. He is shivering as he slowly backs away. Arlo has always been scared of my demon side because his parents where actually murdered by a demon, that how I met him I was tracking the demon for a week and we found it slowly walking to a kid with a sadistic smile on its face but that changed when he seen me he went to bow but I ripped him apart completely killing him. Seeing Arlo scared like that made me snap out of my state of mind.
"Arlo." I go to reach out but he stumbles back and falls. I bring my hand back to my side not wanting to scare him more. But he quickly got up and took off. I went to chase him but then I stopped in the middle of the woods and let a yell out in anger.
"Im so fucking stupid. What did I do!" I scream "I cant even blame you Samael you tried to stop me!" I continue to rant. 'Alex it would of happen one day its only once we can prevent it from ever happening again. Its not as bad as is could of been right?' He says out i nod my head 'Alex don't beat your self up it okay. look im not even mad and Arlo he was just scared of seeing that much of yoru demon side he will forgive you Alex.' What about the rest? I just fucking murdered a man! What if I didn't walk away what if I killed Katherine or what if esme didnt take the boys out and I hurt them! I yelled then I thought back to what started it "what the fuck even happen..." I breath out as i look at my body and see blood still coming out of my wounds and i had a lot, the ones that were shallow already healed they just left red marks but my deep ones and there is about 12 of them were open and bleeding. 'Kleine es gut wird nur Luft und beginnen zu Fuß nach Hause gehen werden wir alles noch später.(Little one it is going to be okay just breath and start walking home we will figure everything else out later)' Samael says out I and I start walking to the house with a blank mind I just wanted to drink or-. 'Don't you even dare fucking say that! You don't get to say you wanna drink of flip the switch cause I swear I will beat the shit out of you. How? well i will figure that out but im fucking serious.' My eyes widen see Akela is not one to swear to much he only does it when he truly is pissed off or if he is trying to fully get his point across. I put my head down and just keep walking.
The walk lasted an hour and a half mostly cause I walked slowly to prepare for what ever happens. At the house i take a deep breath and walk in i made no eye contact with anyone i just went straight up stairs to my room. I locked the door i felt so bad the white door was now covered in blood. I took a deep breath and just stared at the ground. I could kind of hear them talking.
"Carlisle needs to make sure she is physically okay."
"She's not going to let anyone next to her Alice. Especially if she just killed someone."
"We don't know that!"
"Are you calling Arlo a liar Emilio?"
"Tyler that's not what I mean maybe she has a reason."
"It doesn't mater what happened, it is done we have to help her.."
"Rose we are mostly likely one of the last people she want to see along with Katherine."
"What even happened Who's idea was it to try and make her jealous."
"It was mine I dared Evelyn but i didn't think she would tell rose to imagine it was Alex instead of her."
"I just wanted it to be more funny i didn't think she would get turned on."
"You didn't think a vampire that is mated to the person you told her to think of was doing it and wouldn't get turned on. Do you not know how easy it is for a vampire to get turned on?!"
"Alice calm down."
"Look im sorry when the smell hit the air i got off just to show her that I wasn't even hard it was just a joke that I have took it to far."
"So we have two chicks with dicks in the house?"
"Emmett really that all you hear?"
"Is she going to be okay?"
"She is just going to need a little bit of time maybe Arlo is the one to talk to her now cause im mean form what I seen she snapped out of her haze seeing him."
"Arlo are you okay?"
"Yeah im fine I just froze, her eyes are darker then his but her teeth and the look after she had his blood just made me think of that night, but im not scared of her I was just scared in that moment cause all I seen was the teeth nothing else. Do you think I can try to talk to her?"
"Let rose try first that is her mate, plus she is not in a blind rage anymore."
"Lauren we are the ones that put her in that rage."
"The worst she will do is tell rose to leave. Rose is hurting cause she is the one that made her mate to be like this. She need try talk to her or at least try."
"Lauren you sure you know what your talking about."
"How long have I known her? i made her have flash backs of her father cause I was trying to piss her off. Just trust me. This is her mate no matter what happens she loves rose more then she loves her own life."
I take a deep breath as I just stop listening to them and i look and see im creating a small puddle of blood. I can sense rose coming up slowly. The guilt coming from her was strong I felt bad, Lauren was right only blind rage would make me hate rose the way I did. I take a deep breath as I unlock the door when I feel her right in front of the door.
"Love come in and please and shut the door." I whisper out she does as i said. I could feel her eyes on all my wounds that were soaking through my shirt "c-can you help me" I whisper lower as i raise my hands up for her to know I need my shirt off. I can feel her hesitation before she steps behind me and slowly takes my shirt off i flinch to the pain. She goes to drop my shirt but i turn and grab it. I still have not looked at her. I couldn't even bear to see the guilt she has in her eyes as she looks at me just sensing it alone was enough to know I was in rough shape. I slowly walk to the bathroom trying not to get to much blood everywhere in my reading room once in the bath room a start using my shirt to stop the gash that was on my ribcage that was bleeding. Most of the rest of them I could see were just droplets of blood cause blood clots stopped it from bleeding badly. This one was a claw mark that was deep I pulled my shirt away and pulled the skin apart to see how deep it was and i could see white, i bite my lip from screaming in pain as i put the shirt back over it. I need a drink 'no you don't' I huff as i turn my back to the mirror and look at my back it was mostly teeth marks the rest are red marks the only other thing I noticed to be bleeding back is the back of my neck where she had me the rest where not bad. Then i finally caught a glimpse of rose and all i seen was guilt and pain as she watched me. I took a deep breath as I turn and look her in the eyes and I walk towards her.
"My love, please do not look like this it does not fit you. I am okay i heard what happened, I just got jealous and then anger mixed with it and i lost it. Please don't beat yourself up." I whisper as I put my hand on her cheek i felt bad I just got blood over her but she didn't mind I seen her look at the blood on my mouth. Before she disappeared. I frowned but she quickly came back with a wet rag as she whipped the mans blood off my mouth and chin. I look down remembering i was in full control and i was the one that did it. She grabs my chin and makes me look her in the eyes.
"Alex I seen that look you don't get to beat yourself up either. We all have killed someone, some more then one but we all did it. Its just part of our instincts. And your rage helped feed into that instinct. Never beat yourself over it, Just learn form it." I weakly smile at her. "Please let me take you to Carlisle you have been losing a lot of blood slowly and you are really pale now." She ask with worry in her voice as she searches my eyes. I nod yes she quickly picks me up and runs to Carlisle office where he was already waiting.
I took a seat on his table as i stare at my feet i could hear rose talking to him but I didn't listen. Then I felt his cold hands touch a couple bites then stings came as he cleaned them. When he moved to my neck I felt a needle go in I tried to not flinch to the pain but getting stiches in a fresh wound and alcohol getting pour on in. I started shaking my leg as I gripped the table as he finished on me back. When he got to my chest that's when i finally listened to him.
"Alex im going to need your sports bra off. Now i can have rose do it as i give you privacy to cover up so I can check the wound. " he says out I nod and he is quick to leave rose slowly comes to my side. I looked at her and the uncertainty that was going through her eyes I nod my head to just let her know its okay. With that she extends her hands and slowly rips my sports bra off she folds a down and warps it around my breast and i hold it in place then tells Carlisle he is good to come in. He came in then pulled the cloth away i seen him take a deep and unneeded breath. "Alex im afraid this is far to deep im going to have to mostly put staples in. You also will have to be very careful, this is going to take a few days to heal but if you damage the staples then its going to take a lot longer." I nod as i look at the cloth he is holding. I really didn't care. I wanted to drink. 'Alex you don't need it, right Samuel?' 'Yes?' I just close my eyes.
"Stitch me up doc. Can I go to bed after this?" I reopen my eyes when I finish. I seen him frown his eyebrows and I could see worry passing through his eyes be he nodded non the less. I give him a forced smile then looked away as he begun sowing me back up.
It didn't take him long before her put a wrap around me and let me leave. Which I happily grabbed rose and went to our room. I really wanted to sleep or drink. But since drinking was off the table, i was going to take my mate and sleep, and with that I drifted away but I took my mind to the place I created when I was into much pain it was peaceful here.