Loving The Goddess

Chapter 19.

I walked into the house after killing a few helpless animals. When i walked in I seen everyone talk but the male in the group stared at me like he was analyzing me. His staring caught the rest of there eyes as they stare at me. And honestly I didnt know what to do I kinda just stood frozen at the front door. Carlisle walk up to me and smiled.
"Alex I would like you to meet the other coven that is like us. You have Tanya, Kate, and Irina. They are all sisters. Then you have Carmen and her mate Eleazar." I nod at them.
"Denali this is roses mate also the wolf that walked off." Carlisle said.
"If you dont mind me asking are you only wolf?" I look at Eleazar weird. "Im sorry I only ask cause most werewolfs dont have giftes and you have quiet a few that I sense." I frown my eyes more.
"Alex Eleazar can tell what gifts people have." Jasper speaks out.
"Ah. I see." I spoke lowly as i study everyone in the coven. "I am a hybrid of a demon and werewolf." I spoke out as i seen some of there faces show shock as some show a little worry. Then there was a gasp behind me and i turn and seen it was Katherine and she was wide eye. "Or if you talk to certian people they would say the new king of the underworld and the last alpha werewolf alive." This time i spoke quietly hate calling my self the king. I still will never accept it.
"King of the underworld? You mean like the devil." Irina spoke up. I shook my head.
"Please never compare me to that man he was as much of a king as he was a father." I growled out just hate being compared to him. They gave me a confused look i shook my head as I excuse myself. And walked upstairs I could feel a panic attack wanting to come up just thinking of being in my fathers place. Would i be the monster i was ment to be? Am I a monster and I just dont know yet? 'Alex stop breath.' 'Little one you are not him you never will be you are so strong and have so much hope in you that you would never be him.' 'Alex you are not a monster I would tell you you have a heat and a soul please calm down.' 'Just take deep breathes' I nod as I just take feel breathes. The door opens and my mates sent floodied in I didnt even give her a chance to even register what happen as my body flew at her, and just burried my head in her neck and took deep breathes.
"Hey it okay." She whispers as she wraps her arms around me and hold me tight. I just nod as i try to burry my face more in her neck.
After a while of just calming down i finally spoke.
"Please never let me become a monster." I whispered out.
"Never i would fight anyone that tried to change you." I smile against her neck and squeeze her sides.
"Rosalie i love you."
"Alexandria I love you too." I pull back and look her in the eyes and see the biggest smile on her face. I softly lean in and kiss her. I pull away after a little and rest our foreheads together. "Are you okay now?" I can her the worry lace through her voice.
"Im okay my love." I smile softly as I breath her in.
After just sitting in the room cuddled to rose we hear esmes say foods ready. I take one last deep breath before I got off rose and we walk down stairs i seen all the Denali looking at me. I lowly growled i dont know what it is but something about them makes me just feel uneasy. I dont think it was all them just one or two but i just couldn't tell which one it was. I faced away from them and went to the kitchen but I didnt want to eat I kinda just gave it to rose. Honestly I kinda just wanted her in my lap. I didnt mean it perverted but that way works to.
After they all finished eating everyone was in the main living room with the coven i kinda just secluded myself from them as I went to the second floor living room. A few times they would ask question about me. It made me laugh half the response Lauren or the pack would say. About after a couple hours i heard someone walking up the stairs but I didnt care to turn my music down or even open my eyes to acknowledge them. But I did snap my eyes open when I felt cold fingers touch my leg. When i focused i seen alice standing pushing my legs off so she could sit down.
"Alex are you okay?" She asks I take a deep breath.
"Im okay, I just don't have good feelings and im in my feelings but im okay just a mood swinging hybrid." I say the last part to try to crack a joke but I could see she seen through what I was tring to do.
"Alex ive seen things you can talk to me if you need. Ive never been one to see into someones past just future so there is a reson why I see into my sister mates past. Who I shouldnt have to mind you thats been through thing some people should never feel." I frown my eyes.
"Y-you seen." I whispered it out. She nodded. I just took a deep breath I can feel my tears welling up. But I was quick to stand up. "I-i." I stuttered out hate feeling my emotions coming out i just wanted to run. And thats exactly what I did I just bolted. All i could think of was get alone before I broke down. I ran intill my body just fell. As i just broke down and it fucking hurt. I knew Samael and Akela where trying to speak to me but I was already gone as tears just came out as my chest tightened as i just cried and cried hard.