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Chapter 16

Sadly, the glimpse of my wonderful world had to end at some point and I had to let Louis go so we wouldn't get caught. It breaks my heart that Louis and I can't be a normal couple and go out into the world. I would declare my love for him in a second from the highest point on earth for everyone to hear. But I can't because he would suffer the consequences along with   me and I never want to be the cause of any harm to my Louis.

But I have to remember my world can't be all butterflies and rainbows. I have at least three men on this train who would kill me without warning and I would have even more if they found out about what I was doing. If it wasn't for Louis and Rosie I think I would leave this train in a heartbeat. But it also frightens me to think of everyone else I have come to care about on this train left with Richard. The men he's killed, more women he has possibly raped; it sickens me. I never thought I would meet a man as cruel and heartless as him. The way I was raised, it was almost as if they didn't exist. I wish I could have kept it that way. But, everyone has to grow up at some point.

I made it back to my room and luckily Niall was still asleep with Queenie asleep by his side. That is until I accidentally kicked a post and woke him up. He jolted his head off the pillow, taking him a few seconds to crack his eyes open and Queenie growled as if it were a reflex. "Harry?" He mumbled in a low, scratchy morning voice, "Where were you last night, man? I was lookin' for ya all over." He asked, sitting up and rubbing his eyes. "You weren't here when I got back." I pondered what I should tell him. I wasn't sure if I should say I hooked up with any of the showgirls like Louis said because he probably saw all the girls last night. Well, I have to tell him something.

"I was, uh..visiting someone." I spit out the best I could. I hope he can't see the sweat starting to form on my forehead.

"Hmm, a girl friend or boy friend?" He wiggled his eyebrows at me. Boyfriend, yes, I was with my boyfriend.

"U-uh...girl." I stammered, it hurt lying about being with Louis, I love him and everyone should know it. Love shouldn't be hidden.

"Oooh, scandalous, Styles." He exclaimed, smirking at me.

"Pervert, it wasn't anything like that." It was exactly like that, but not with a girl, definitely not a girl.

                                              

"You're not foolin' me, Styles. I can see that 'just had sex' glow."

"Ha!" I laughed out loud, "Shows what you know, it didn't get that far." Oops, I probably shouldn't have said that. His eyes grew wider and he waved his finger at me.

"So, you two did do something!" He proclaimed, overjoyed that he was in fact correct. I sat down on my blanket Indian style and started picking at little spots on my trousers. "What ya do?! What ya do?!"

When Niall gets excited he is much like a small child who is unbelievably giddy that he is getting candy. "Nothing." I muttered, he did not believe me at all.

"Yes, you did! And I won't stop bugging you until you tell me!" He demanded I spill my guts to him (Oh, I don't like that figure of speech when there are men who actually would spill my guts, literally).

"You can't tell anyone." I huffed in annoyance. He smiled wide and jumped excitedly. "S-she," gosh, it's really hard to say that, "suckedmeoff." I mumbled fast and low, feeling a blush rising to my cheeks.

"What?"

"Suckedmeoff."

"Dammit, Harry! Spit it out!" He yelled.

"Sucked me off!" I yelled at him, "You happy?" He started laughing at my anger rising.

"Haha, first blowjob huh?" I blushed and nodded shyly. He just laughed and stood up to pull his shirt on. "Bet you didn't last two seconds."