Consumed: Always & Forever | Shawn Mendes |

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The worst thing about being married to someone who is incredibly famous is the lack of privacy.

The moment paparazzi saw me walk out of my condominium complex it was a media frenzy, only because someone got wind of Shawn's impending comeback to the music world and everyone wanted a quote from him or I to confirm the rumors.

I learned to smile and be polite but never answer any questions that they shot out or comments they egged a response too.

As my bodyguard Micah blocked them as best as he could so I could get to my black rental car the amount of flashing lights I was rained with was beyond overwhelming and I was happy I had shades.

I got into the car and let out a huge breath as I took my phone out and quickly texted Shawn, letting him know I was on my way to the doctors office on the other side of Brooklyn. He quickly responded and informed me that he told the driver to switch cars at a certain point to throw the paps off since they knew the license plate to my rental.

These were the moments I hated being in the spot light, this was beyond ridiculous that I couldn't just go to the doctor without photos being taken and massive rumors starting.

Shawn couldn't make it because he was back at his record label breaking the news to Andrew and the rest of his team. We decided that he would release a single as his fans were all going crazy with just the rumors, they missed him and it was made extremely known and I felt more guilty now. But all the love and support we received made me feel slightly better.

But now I was a complete nervous wreck as I hopped out of one car and into another in a small vacant parking lot.

"Mrs. Mendes our ETA is about twenty minutes is there any food you were like while we are on our way?" My driver Max asked as he adjusted the review mirror.

"No, thank you Max. But if you guys are hungry please feel free to get yourselves something." I spoke as I placed my phone beside me, feeling my hands shake involuntary.

I laid my head on the leather cushion of the seat and closed my eyes as the ride to the doctor began to hum lowly to calm my nerves.

•••

I laid in a white gown with my legs spread open and a Doctor was throughly examining me.

"Everything is great Mrs. Mendes. Now I'm going to place a small amount of jelly on the stick and you feel a small pressure but take a deep breath in and we're gonna find this beautiful baby." Doctor Nazarene spoke in a calm soothing southern accent.

I quickly took a few deep breaths in and I felt the cold object being inserted inside of me, and then I looked over at the ultrasound as she moved around to find the heartbeat.

After a few seconds the nurse seemed to have found something on the screen and she began typing and clicking and typing some more.

There was pure silence and it made me un easy.